2005 has been a rather "relaxed" year as compared to 2004 (due to O levels), and it will be nothing compared to 2006 (due to A levels). This year, i moved out of Commonwealth Secondary, my home for 4 years, and transferred to Jurong Junior College and in the process, made new bonds and in some cases, severed old ones.
The following entry will just summarise 2005 as a whole, by highlighting important events happening from January to December. I swear this will be one fooking long and perhaps, boring entry. hahaha. So if you have the time, and if you even bother,
This month, i found out JJC was chosen to be my house for the first 3 months, which was until i get my O levels results. For the first few days, i found it hard to made friends, even during the orientation camp. But at last, i managed to find friends in Shamini, Salbiah, Sangitah, Han Ning, Hai Lin, Yvonne and Nazeera. These friends helped me out a lot during the first 3 months, and proved to make every break a comedy skit.
I (as well as a million other students) received a letter from the Ministry of Education inviting us to join the workforce at this age, as a teacher. I had really contemplated on quitting the JC route and instead start earning money whilst studying through the scheme, but my teachers had advised me to get a degree first. Thefore, here i am.
On the way home from school one day, my group of friends and i were greeted by a Bangladeshi worker "working his thang" under the void deck in front of our school. It was my first time seeing a "thang" in real life, and i have to say it was a horrible experience. Wakaka. So chaotar and flimsy and hairy and... ok stop it Faddy. Hahaha.. I too made my first phonecall to the police force.
I started drifting apart with the Sephy Estrellas, my group of close Malay friends in Commonwealth Sec. The fact that they're in the same school (Yishun JC) and I'm not, made it harder to communicate due to the differences we had. Atikah and I (who used to be best friends) were no longer best friends, something which i blame myself up till today.
Last of all, for January, the Sunshine paid for half of my current phone, the 7600. There was no special event or whatevers, he just decided to treat me. Hehehee. I fell in love with the phone the moment i laid my eyes on it, and till now, my love remains true. I don't intend to change phones unless the phone dies or something.
English - B3 Malay - A1 E Maths - A2 Combined Humans - A2 Literature in English - B3 Physics - B3 Chemistry - B4
That makes my L1R5 a total of 14 points. BUT
Higher Malay - B3 CCA - 1 pt Stay in JJC - 2 pts
14 - 4 = 10!
I finally got my long awaited O Levels results, and i did quite badly if compared to my PSLE aggregate, but if compared to my slacker behaviour in Commonwealth Sec, i guess i did pretty ok. At this point of time i really really regretted misbehaving, as i knew in my heart i could have done better. However, as the phrase goes, there's no use crying over spilt milk.
I discovered the amount of serenity praying at a Mosque can give a person, therefore i started popping by that place rather often for the next few months, praying there before and after dates with the Sunshine.
A gang named "The Society" was born. Even though i don't really keep in contact with them (except for Sangitah who is standing in the middle), i have to admit they provided one of the most fondest memories in my mind. We were 17, but we acted like we were 7. It was hilarious!
The Sunshine surprised me on Valentine's Day by turning up unexpectedly. He suddenly appeared at my Mom's shop, helped me to take care of the shop for a while, where he then whisked me off for lunch. Gave me my very first rose and teddy from a boyfriend.
I was still in contact with 2 of my closest friends, Ashrithaa and Claire (no points for those who guessed who is which). This time, we met up at Harbourfront. I guess at this point of the year, i still had my feet on the ground, and not too high up flying in the cloud of love. wakakka.
I crashed SAJC, and later on Michelle and Claire crashed JJC. We had a dandy time at JJC (much better then SA, which was sooo boring thanks to Claire who was a bad tour guide) karaokeing at the lecture theatre. Haha. My first time singing in such a big place, disregarding the fact that there were no audience except for the two bitches.
I cut my hair at some nyonya stall downstairs. It was a new look, which looked nice for the first hour. Damn it. Why does my hair frizz up so fast???!!!
Ok i take that back. April has to be the most boringest month! There's no photos whatsoever in my blog in this month. Blearggh. I did notice, however, that Claire baby and I started to have rifts in our friendship. Hum di hum. Notice the pattern? I can't seem to keep my friends. -sigh- I just don't know hooowwwwwww. This sucks.
Oh and when Claire and I were drifting apart, i began to make another set of friends. The current JJC close friends i have - Fara, Dana, Rad, Sang (remaining member of "The Society") and Hazirah.
Ohhhh. I think i know why April and May sucks. Haha. Due to the mini blog hiatus i was having. Therefore, hiatus = no blog entries = life unrecorded. I did manage to salvage however, that during this month,
The Sunshine and i discovered an almost perfect gravy for satay at the Esplanade, as well as a great singer named Richard Phillip. I have to warn you, however, that the quality of the gravy has since been deteriorating. Bleargh.
I too quit the school hockey team, much to the distaste of the seniors. Made some enemies amongst the hockey seniors when i made the decision, but yeahhh. All's good. Their hatred doesn't affect me much, i guess.
It's the month of LOVE people! The sunshine and i celebrated our 1 year together, and boy did we have a great time celebrating it! We spent tons of money (both mine and his), went somewhere we've never went before, and for the first time since weeks before the event, did not snap at each other. Not even once! heh.
Not surprisingly, 99% of my blog entries in this month was dedicated to us. Oh and not to forget 99% of my life too. Which, of course, led my friends to hate me. But that, my readers, is a story for another month. Which is the month of...
After 17 years of not really conversing with my cousins on my mom's side due to a misunderstanding, a miracle in the name of "Binsueb Chalet" happened. The chalet held sort of "forced" me to open up to them, and yeah. -smiles- Now i'm talking to them like regular family. Cousins like Hajar and Fiza.
Like mentioned in June, my friends started to get disappointed in me due to my imbalance in managing time between them, and the Sunshine. By friends, i mean friendS. All of them. Like Ashrithaa, Claire, Hakim, Atikah, Liyana, Pe'ah, Fara and Dana. Erkss.
Claire told me outright how she and Ashrithaa felt about it. Fara and Dana kept mentioning and hinting it to me while the rest were talking about it behind my back. I apologised to them, and put an extra effort in trying to balance my life. But, i think i've not really done really well enough. Have i?
This month too has resulted in the Sunshine giving me a ring, a total surprise. He had hidden it in my bag whilst i wasn't looking. So cute, right? haha. I loved the ring, but the girlish design made me quiver in my seat. However, a month later, i realised it does look nice, and damn right that guy knows me best. wahahaa. Did i mention it was the first time a guy ever gave me a ring? - smiles-
The new committee for the Malay Cultural Society was formed. Dana was picked to be the president, whilst Fara was picked to be the vice-president. The MCS is the first CCA i have which i'm quite passionate and proud of. Hidup Melayu! hhaha.
Faddy is 17 years old! I had a great birthday this year, surrounded by my loved ones. The best gift i got was a surprise envelope and letter by the Sunshine, which contained $150, which i used to buy my first ever iPod - the iPod mini.
The most horrible fight happened between the Sunshine and I during this month. It happened on our 14th Monthsary. There was lots of shoutings and tears and damn it was embarrasing, something i'd rather not elaborate more about. During the tough brief time-out, the friends i just made up with came to my rescue. (Talk about great timing)
I finally met up with my besties after such a long long while. Over the dinner cum Faddy's bday celebration, we caught up with each other's lives etc. However, as it was already rather late, everyone had to rush off (including me). So that bit kinda sucks.
Kim pulled me out of my misery, by bringing me out. That cute bugger actually took pains to graffitise a cardboard box for me with my name on it for my birthday, and i was very very impressed. We spent the day with his friends and stuff, and from that day on, Kimi and I remained close friends up till today. He's the one i contact with the most as compared to my other friends from the past.
Oh and by August 28th, the Sunshine and i decided to give us another chance, which so far, has proven not to be a wrong move. -grins-
I officially declare this month MCS and Mugging month! You should have seen the number of posts dedicated to MCS and Mugging, man. hahaha. Quite cool.
I devirginised myself as i went Sentosa for the first time! Wahaha. ok ive been there once before when i was really really young, so its not counted lah. i've to say i picked the right group of people to go with - the MCS people. Although it was raining, it didn't stop us from having so much fun. heh.
This month is the peak period for MCS. We cleaned up the MCS room, did an awesome job at the Mooncake festival, and most of all, most of us bonded really well together. I was really proud of us, and felt so much enthusiasm in the cca, something totally new to me. hahaha.
An outing consisting of myself, Nassy, Kimi and Farez occured. I had the best time ever, but now... What the future holds for us is a total mess, dude. -smiles- Perhaps time will take its course.
(Oh and i started adding text to my pictures too!) hahahha.
October marks the month of Ramadhan. Here's a few people i broke my fast with throughout the month:
The Sunshine + Ex-Higher Malay + Rad.
The family on Dad's side.
MCS peeps.
My lovely cousin, Anz.
Like it says. Haha.
Kimi and Nassy.
October was also the time where the promotional exams were taking place, which brings us to the fact that i skipped my History promotional exams halfway due to a sickness. The first time ever in my whole life where i did that. Blearggh.
Tralalala! The Sunshine topped up some money, and i added a bit more, and i sold off my iPod mini and THIS is what i got! Wahaha. The iPod Photo 30Gb!! -grins madly-
October kinda sucks too, as Fara and I found out that my Chinone classmates actually told on us when they got caught skipping classes. Bah. What friends we have.
I had the most expensive haircut i've ever had in my whole life! Actually it was only $26 uh, which may be the norm for some of you, but for me, i've been cutting my hair at the nonya shop downstairs for roughly $10, so yeah. Big Milestone. haha. The Haircut was done at Jantzen's by the way.
And then Hari Raya Aidilfitri came along! Wahahha. Show me the money!~
This Hari Raya was also the first time whereby i met up with the Sunshine's family - His parents, siblings, as well as his grandparents. It went well, although it could have been better. I'm just thankful that we got along fine. Hahaha.
And to add on to the blessings from parents news, it turns out that my mum already knows about Faris and I. And from what i see, she approves in her own silent way (at least thats what i got myself to see). Hehe.
My Mum and Dad had their first fight in the time span of the first 17 years i've been on this earth. It was a rather traumatising experience, with Mom crying and Dad shouting and... I'm just thankful normality resumed not long after.
The aunt paid for my cousin Wani and I to watch M Nasir at the concert. I have to say i love that guy a huge lot. He's a total all-rounder, dude. Noone can top him.
November was also the month where i stopped downloading illegal music!! Haha. It was such a hard thing to do, i tell you. I had huge withdrawal symptoms.
Alright we're on to the last month of the year. Are you still awake yet? hahaha.
I finally had a mini-outing with the Sunshine's friends, through the job stint at the Asian Television Awards. They're quite different from the peeps at JJC, but yeah, i guess we got along ok. -smiles-
Oh and the uproar caused due to my photo with Taufik was uber-mega. I mean c'mon lah. I know you guys are jealous. Don't have to bitch about me until like that right? Whahaha.
December was also very the exciting, as it was the first time ever where the 4 cousins + aunt embarked on a mini trip. Although it was only at Johore, and it was only for 2 days, we had so much fun and tried so much new stuffs. It will be the very first outing out of many in the years to come, InsyaAllah.
The trip to Sentosa which i had with the Sunshine was one of the best moments i've ever shared with him. We luged, we chairlifted, we biked etc. Everything was monumentally perfect.
Afterwhich, he set off for a 9day trip to Penang, the longest time we've ever been apart.
I finally went open about my not-wearing of my tudung. It caused quite a commotion between my family and I, but i guess they're ok with it right now. The decision is only a temporary one, as i plan to wear it once again when i enter University, InsyaAllah.
My brother became a Mat! Wahahahahahahhaa. Ok enough said.
THE END.
And so those are just random bits and pieces of my 2005. It was a bad year for friends, as i somehow still havent really grasp the concept of balancing time between them and the Sunshine. It was a great year for the Sunshine and i, as we've gotten much closer, and our families both know of our existence.
I ended this year off rather well, I've to say. The brothers and I are getting along fine. The mother and father too. The Sunshine and I are closer then ever. I remained close to Kim. And this morning, i finally made up with Atikah, my former best friend of 4 years. The only thing missing, was the non-existant reply i needed to have from Claire Chan regarding our friendship.
Wishin you all a great 2006. Love, Faddy.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 11:59 PM
Friday, December 30, 2005
Erm..
It must be my slightly tarnished mind or sumthing, but the following picture:
Just amuses me. Haha. Fook on, dudes!
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 8:19 PM
Tagged!
Ahhh! There's no running away from it anymore! Damn. First Aziz tagged me, then Kimi, and now Tongy. The phrase "You can run but you can't hide" sure applies to this situation. Hahaha. So to the three of you, here's my reply (like finally):
Er.. What was I supposed to do? Oh yeah. Post 5 weird/random things about myself.
i) I can never ever ever sleep with my door even 1/2 an inch open. It has to be closed all the way. Cuz i'm terrified of waking up in the middle of night and seeing things staring at me from beyond the door. (And i don't mean furniture or whatever)
ii) I avoid looking at the foot of my bed too before i go to sleep. Cuz that's apparently where my friend Atikah saw a white apparation during her sleepover at my place, therefore i myself do not want to experience the experience she experienced. (say that again)
iii) If i get home past 7pm, I'll avoid taking the lift, and instead run up the stairs. And i mean run.
iv) I do not go to sleep accompanied by classicals or soft rock music or whatevers. I go to sleep accompanied by my iPod playing verses from the Quran. Kekeke. Cuz the last time i fell asleep listening to death metal, i had a terrible, terrible nightmare.
v) I'm absolutely terrified at the prospect of ghostly encounters. Oh wait. I guess you already figured that out after reading the first 4 facts. kwang kwang kwaaaaang.
Yay! Finito! Now i'm supposed to tag 5 people to pass the baton to. Let's see...
If you guys can't be arsed to do it. I totally understand. Ok ciao! Updates resume soon. Kinda caught up at the moment.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 7:02 AM
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Siblings ramblings.
Yesterday afternoon, whilst the Sunshine and I were scouting Peninsula Plaza for shoes, we stumbled across my brother (Fauzi) and his whole group of friends. A brief exchange of greetings later, we separated and i thought that was the end of it.
But nah. I reached home at around 530pm, and apparently the brother was still out. Guess who my mum blamed? Me.
She blamed me, for it was my fault that she was pressured to allow him to leave the house. She blamed me, for it was my fault that he had the impression it was ok to hang out with friends. I don't mind being blamed as it was true, in a way.
I did speak up for him when the mum first disallowed him to go out. I said
"Nevermind lah Mak. Let him go out once in a while. Once in a week or something. It would just be unfair right for him to be locked in the house when his best mates are out. Furthermore, he does nothing good at home also."
I'm not one who just speaks my mouth out, ok. I gave it a huge thought before i stood up for him. First of all, i love him a whole damn lot and am very protective over him. The reason why i stood up for him, is because i don't want him to undergo the same thoughts and emotions i did when i was his age.
I don't want him to start lying to the parents and me whenever he wants to go out. I don't want him to start rebelling like i did, only to make my mother cry. To summarise it, i don't want my Mak to make the same mistakes she did on me (by giving me no freedom), and then resulting in Fauzi making the same mistakes i did.
My brother is a good kid. I know, because i'm close to him. I know some of his school mates. I know his outside friends. I know he doesn't smoke. I know he doesn't drink. I know he ain't a playboy. And how fucked up can a guy studying triple sciences be? The fact that his studies are doing well (better then mine at that age) speaks volumes doesn't it?
Just let him go out once a week with his friends lah. I don't see any problem in that, seeing that they're quite ok kids, not like the Mats and Minahs nowadays. They solat when they go out, and they don't create trouble. Furthermore, isn't it better that she know where he went, who his friends are etc?
After she scolded me for around an hour or so, i began having doubts over my actions. Should i have spoken up for him? Should i have encouraged him to go out?
After much thought, i sent him this sms
"Anyway, just wanted to advise you. Freedom is like using Nitro. You use everything at one go, you get the ride of your life. But once the Nitro finishes, the car also pancit. So if mum gives you the freedom, don't abuse it, or she'll take it all away.
I needed 2 years to get her trust back after that incident when i was sec 3 remember? And you don't want to make her cry like i did, trust me. Now be a good boy and use your mind before making any decisions, ok? I trust you're mature enough.
By the way, it may seem to you like i'm making a big deal over nothing. But as your sister, i'm just gonna advise you before anything bad happens."
And when he got home and said "Thank You" to me in my face, i somehow think i did the right thing. At least i hope i have. And then he spent the next few minutes sharing his outing details with me, showing me the photos and videos they took. -everybody say awwww-
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 10:37 AM
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Guess who's back? (girly rantings)
The Sunshine touched down on home ground this morning at 9am, and i picked him up. Carrying truckloads of bags and smelly shirts, we boarded 30 back to his house, where we did lots of catching up on lost time together.
So whilst i gave him an hour to freshen up (he insisted on going out with me), i went to Jurong Point to return some books, as well as eat breakfast. (alone. my god what a loser. wahaha). Guess who i saw? Ismail Haron!! hahahaha. Quite cool ey. I find his stage antics rather.. amusing.. but hey only a genius could have written a song like "Ilham Pujangga".
The date itself was great, lots of talking and joking and just plain catching up. 9 days... thats long dude. heh. Oh yeah! He bought me this nice Adidas shirt from KL (original ok not ciplak haha), which fits me perfectly. -grins-
I missed that dude lots. And now we're back to calling each other every 3 hours or so and oh! how i've missed those talking sessions. heh heh heh. ok bye.
PS. Normal not so girly infested entries due soon.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 7:12 PM
Monday, December 26, 2005
Sebutir Pasir. (edited)
I've always loved this poem titled "Sebutir Pasir", written by Hadijah Rahmat. Thought i'd just share it with you guys. (Sorry non-Malay readers!)
"Apalah erti hidup? Sekadar penerusan tarikan nafas Tidak boleh atau gentar dihentikan Dan setakat menyelesakan Sebongkah daging pembungkus belulang Yang akhirnya diluluhkan Kematian dah kefanaan.
Yang dinamakan kehidupan Dibanding dengan alam dan keTuhanan Bagai sebutir pasir di daratan Yang hilangnya tidak sedikitpun Menjejas kesempurnaan.
Di tengah sahara kemanusiaan Seorang Musafir bermimpikan Mata air yang mengalir Dengan igauan mengusir;
Jadilah aku sebutir pasir Membentuk muka bumi yang indah Bukan yang dilayang angin Memasuki mata dan mengalirkan air mata!"
Since we're at the topic of poems, i decided to give my old Poetry blog a visit. Oh, it has since deceased by the way. wahahaha. Here's a few poems which i've put up:
"Kadangkala ku terfikir jua Mengapa kayangan kian berunsur jingga Mengapa rembulan diambil alih mentari Mengapa dedaun asyik menari.
Kadangkala ku menitis air mata Kerna kehadiranku tiada makna Perjalananku tiada yang sapa Pelafazanku hanya kata-kata.
Kadangkala diriku berfatamorgana Membayang jiwa di alam logamaya Menghilang diri dari alam yang fana Dimana aku dianggap tiada.
Kadangkala hatiku tertanya-tanya Mengapa wajahku tak secantik mereka Mengapa naluriku asyik terluka Mengapa aku Tiada yang cinta.
Kadangkala..."
And another one:
"Aku ingin keseorangan Menetap di pertengahan samudera Flora dan fauna mendakap visi Tolong, tinggalkanku sendiri.
Aku ingin kesepian Biarku hanyut di kepulan awan diantara cakerawala adiwarna Tolong, tinggalkanku sendiri.
Aku ingin ke kayangan Tiada yang ganggu, Tiada yang perli Tolong, tinggalkanku sendiri.
Aku ingin persoalan terhenti Jangan disoalkan hasrat naluri Kerna aku memang dicipta begini Tolong, tinggalkanku sendiri.
Aku ingin dibiarkan ketepi Tiada perlu pura untuk tersenyum sipu Jangan sekali mencuci mata dengan belas kasihan Kerna aku mahu ditinggalkan sendiri.
Tolong. Pergi. Tolong biarkan ku sendiri."
Haha. I was feeling emo-fied lah! The first poem was back when i was still single, and everyone (and i really mean everyone) around me were having relationships. And everytime i went out with my chiobu friends, every single one of them would get asked out by strangers, whilst i was always (and i really mean always) the odd ugly one out. Whahaa.
The second one was when i kept getting teased by my relatives about my introverted behaviour, my frizzy hair, my uber dark skin etc. Hence the sad and resigned tone. Wakakka. I think i shall start penning emo poems again :)
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 3:08 PM
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Regarding Potluck and Hanyut.
Stepping into my aunt's house for the family gathering, my mood was rather sombre. I was kinda "dragged" to the event, as i didn't really want to attend the potluck. But later, upon knowing that my best couzy Anz decided to turn up at the eleventh hour, my mood sky rocketed exponentially. hahaha.
I felt that the barbequed food was rather bland (not to mention Chaotar), but the other foodstuff like the Spaghetti, the lasagne, the fries etc more then made up for it -pats bloated stomach- Oh yeah. Not to forget the great company!
Rather then mingling outside with the rest of the family, Anz, Ahmad (who are siblings), Fauzi and I (duh siblings haha) decided to get away from the heat and the cackles of laughter from the adults. We snuck into an empty room, took out stacks of Uno, Happy Family and Snap cards, and yuuup you guess it. All hell broke loose!
We enjoyed ourselves so much, that we even slept at their place instead of going home. huargahhaah. -Hugs Anz- I miss my couzy. More pictures as soon as she passes em to me!
Oh one more thing. Remember the fact that i just started talking with my other cousins? So upon entering the house, Hajar (the cousin i started talking to) said Hi to me, and we talked for a few minutes.
Later, Anz asked me.
"Eh why did Hajar talk to you?"
"Errr.. cuz we're cousins?"
"Yah.. but usually you guys don't talk what."
"Haha.. Msn and blogging kinda helps the situation. I chat with her sometimes, and read her blog as well as Fiza's. So its like there's something to talk about. Anyway its good.. right?"
"Yeah it is.. but its just so weird. Give me some time. This needs getting used to. Wakakaka!"
Hanyut. I have to admit it was a very in-your-face episode, and the stories they potrayed was an exact mirror of what a portion of the Malay society are facing right now. Drugs, gangsterism, a rise in family deterioration; a neverending vicious cycle passed down from generation to generation. Truth be told, i felt rather ashamed and sad whilst watching it.
I have mixed feelings about the show. On one hand, i kinda support it, as it helps raise awareness on the huge problem that our society faces. These "hanyut" (translated loosely: "gone astray") teenagers might watch it, realise the shit they have got themselves into, and finally wake up.
On the other hand, it's like washing our dirty linen in public. And what if young kids watch it and decide "Oh man that's so cool" and follow the steps of the characters in these shows? Don't tell me that's crap. Shit happens.
So whats your take?
Random picture time!! Now someone please tell me whats wrong with the following picture?
Nothing, right? That's cuz you didn't look at the big picture!! Not that you could, but nevermind i shall explain.
The van was actually facing the wrong direction right smack in the middle of a 4 lane highway! I was in a taxi when i took the picture, by the way. Apparently, the van got into an accident with a taxi (not the one i'm on, duh), and like Hollywood movies, it managed to turn 180 degrees before stopping to a halt! Damn cool, can?
Noone was hurt (at least from what i saw). So the moral of the story is, when it's raining heavily, please drive safely. Er.. actually drive safely even when it's NOT raining :/
Tuesday is the day when he finally returns. Gosh i so cannot wait!
Now listen up good, people. Pay meticulous attention! My old number 9456 2544 is now defunct. In its place, i will be using a new number, which is 9796 ****.
If i have not sms-ed you, then i truly apologise. Just get me on msn if you want the last 4 digits aight. My msn address is "nurfadhilah88@hotmail.com".
There's this family potluck thing happening at my aunt's place later in the day, conducted by my mum's side. I'm having doubts regarding my attendance :/
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 10:12 AM
One year Six months II.
Alright i edited the template. Again. hehehehe. Not a surprise kan? Haha. Aaaaanyway...
I was tossing and turning in bed. Somehow my eyes just didn't want to rest even though my mind was already half-fried. I turned on the lights, and headed to the sofa in the living room.
The TV came alive, sending flickers of light dancing on the marble floor. I plugged in the Xbox remote controller, only to realise i've already completed "The Urbz: Sims in the City". I surfed the channels. Nothing new to watch.
My fingers reached for the power switch and darkness enveloped the room once again. My feet touched the cold floor, and my legs carried me into the computer room. Again - a click, a whirring, followed by a flicker of light dancing on the floor, this time emitted from the computer screen.
Faddy is currently caught up at the moment playing a new Xbox game which she had borrowed from Kimi. If you need anything from her, please dial her number, or leave a message at the tagboard.
Thank You, and have a nice day.
{edited: oh wait forgot to put this bit up}
Whilst i was hogging the com last night, and the mum was hogging the teevee, my brother Fauzi was bored to death. He started grabbing random sponges, and then decided to draw the hottest cartoon in the world (i really mean this), SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS.
After he finished drawing, i initiated him to add arms and legs and bloody hell, what a cute Spongebob it turned out to be.
Disclaimer: Not sold in any stores world-wide.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 9:17 AM
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Kim Kim Kim Kimi!
I missed my second-best guy friend Kimi a helluva lot, so we decided to meet up for a study date. It was supposed to be "real" studying by ourselves, just the two of us (aww so romantic hor?), but then since his poly friends were also at Jurong Point, it was more realistic if we joined them.
Halfway through, Kimi and I left the rest and headed to Toys'R'us. Much to our amazement, a SpiderWOMAN show was on!!
Ok lame. I'm sleepy laaarhs. Oh btw, regarding my Mac interface, i re-edited the thing to make it more realistic. How? By bringing the Mac-taskbar-thingy down, and the windows one, up. hururhruhru. Like these:
Oh and he called. For 2 mins. In times like these, i SWEAR every second counts man. Even 2 mins of hearing him talk about some Christmas carol thing he had to do at an Old Folks Home tomorrow and the hike he did at some beach just now, was pure bliss. I miss him loads.
"Eh you i have to put the phone down already!"
"But whyyyy?"
"Cuz it's 1 min! Oh shit! Overshot. Ok can talk for another minute. Hahaha!"
Did i mention his hi-card is running low already since his mother called him for quite a while last night? :(
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 1:50 AM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Mac-pirated!
Inspired by Hakim's Windows laptop which had a Mac Os interface, i spent the evening modifying my computer's interface, and i have to say, i am very very much happy with the results.
Presenting, Faddy's new Mac on a Windows-powered computer!
I'm havin compugasms people! The Mac-toolbar thingy (at the top) worked perfectly, the taskbars and whatever bars are all Mac-styled, the calendar at the bottom right fit just right in and... sigh.
I just might switch to Mac once mom says i can get a Laptop. hehehehe.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 9:06 PM
Template!
Yay! I'm finally happy with this template. Not too messy, yet not too bare.
Falalaa. I'm kinda in a happy mood right now. Had lotsa fun the past two days with my family members, going shopping and eating out. Especially since it's mostly free! hahhaa.
On Monday, it was the mother's off day. So we decided to go hang out together, as Fauzi needed to get new school pants (wahhh dah pakai seluar panjang sehhhh) and I, I needed to extend my 2-year contract with Starhub.
Sadly for me, i couldnt get to upgrade my line, as my father needed to be there to sign the form. So we took the next best option which is getting a new line! And with that new line, i managed to get a Motorola V3 black at a super cheap price of $98!
Guess what Faddy did? Guess what Faddy did? hehehhe. I sold off the phone for $310!! HAHAHAHA. $212 profit! Wehehehehee. So fun.
Which... i've used up by today when i went shopping with Fauzi. Omg. I realise im such a spendthrift! But then again, i spent the money on my family members mostly, not myself :/
Managed to get mummy a piece of jewellery from Chomel, dad a striped shirt from some shop (not cheap ok), Fauzi a haircut (talk about this later) and a striped T-shirt from Penin, Farhan a T-shirt from Penin and last but not least tshirts for the Sunshine and I at Freshbox. Oh i also bought the Force Vomit Cd i've been wanting.
Not bad lah tu, eh? It's the season of giving, y'all. HoHoHo. Ok about that haircut Fauzi got. Teeheeheee. (can't you see i'm enjoying myself)
A few months ago when i came back home with my Minah specs, the brother kept taunting me by saying
"ehhh my sister is a minah. EEEEE. Minah! Minah! Minah! Minah!"
I went bonkers, yessiree, i did! But whatever lah eh. Afterall specs can be taken off. So anyway fastforward to today. I got him to try cutting his hair at some salon at Fareast, and the haircut costs a whopping $28. Since its free for him, he said "ok lorrr".
Stepped in, and he chose this super short mohawk which looked cool on the model angmoh. In my heart, i was thinking, that haircut would make him look Super Mat, but heyyyy he didn't ask for my opinion. Te he he!
And so....
"ehhh my brother is a mat skimmer! EEEEE. Mat skimmer! Mat skimmer! Mat skimmer!
Hahahahaha. Well, i daresay it does look nice lah, although the fact that most mat nowadays sport this hairstyle does kinda ruin it abit. So yeah. heh.
OK so that concludes my activities for the past two days. Here's a random picture:
I've been working at my mum's Jamu shop and this Jamu has tickled me for months. I mean cmon man! If you're marketing a slimming + muscle-ing agent, at least get a decent guy to pose lah! This guy soooo looks like he's sucking in his stomach! hahhaa. (eh btol kan? or isit just me?)
In the sad news department, i miss Faris. He can only sms me once a day and call for a min, and he has to stick to that quota or his Hi-card will go dunzo before the 9 days are up. Sigh.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 6:44 PM
WTF moment : Edited
Tell me, what is wrong with the following picture? (please squint if you can't see)
Still don't see it? Well, i'll give you a clue.. Look at the position of the taskbar.
Well?
Yes! That's right! My computer display is fucked! Everything are turned at 180 degree aka terbalik!! Yup, even when im typing this. Damn i feel like vomitting.
Somebody, anybody, help?
[edit]
I woke the brothers up. And i realise the computer is fucked because of who else but the Farhan. Damn i feel like strangling him at times laaaaaaa. He went
"Its not me! Really! Yesterday i use then nothing what."
So ok fine,whatever. I know its you since you used it last yesterday. 15 mins on after fauzi and i kept trying to turn the bloody thing back, he (the farhan) comes back and say
"Yesterday i was playing MapleStory then i ter-press something, then it became like that."
Wah fuck. see i knew he did it. Know him too well already lah.
So since we already know that he did it while playing Maple, Fauzi searched online and got the cheat, logged on to Maple, keyed it in, and WALA its flipped back!
YAY.
Farhan sucks. Period.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 7:38 AM
Monday, December 19, 2005
Very sad, can?
The Sunshine has embarked on a 9 day trip to Penang + Kuala Lumpur with his SJI Ventures squad. Very sad, can?
And so to burn the night away (aside from watching Kuch Kuch Hota Hai) and keep those lonely feelings at bay, i submerged myself in trying to edit a different kind of template. The drop-down kind. And the result, is what you see right now.
I ain't happy with it yet. But hell, i have 9 days. Haha. Shall take my time. -Grins- Good night.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 1:08 AM
Oh and please read this after watching the video aight.
For all those who have noticed, its true. I have ceased from wearing the hijab except for family functions. I guess i'm just not ready as of yet, but insyaAllah, by the time i enter Uni.
I've been wearing the hijab eversince i was in primary school, all the way to secondary school. Some may question my choice of "hanging the hijab" instead of donning it, but i have my reasons.
Similar to one of the characters in the film above, i believe that wearing a hijab kinda limits your actions (in a good way), as you want the public to have a good impression of you since you're now telling the world,
"Hey look! I'm a Muslim!"
In my opinion, if you wanna wear the hijab then you jollywell show that you're a good Muslim. I mean it doesn't look good when you're wearing the hijab while hugging your bf/cursing loudly/drinking/etc.
If you're a random minah doing all that, it's a norm, so people (the non-Muslims, in this context) won't really associate you with Islam. But if you're wearing the hijab, people WILL associate you with Islam. And when you have your negativities on display, they'll start to have this warped impressions of our religion.
This is the reason as to why i have ceased from wearing the hijab for now. I have many people telling me (upon seeing me don the hijab)
"Eh Faddy. You wear the Hijab? Hahaha. You sure don't look like the kind."
"And what's THAT supposed to mean?"
"Aiyah.. You know lah. Your character.."
"@#&&@*##$$!!!"
In my yesteryears (cheh brape tua lah aku ni), i had a foul mouth, i smoked, i talked and cursed loudly in public, etc, all these while donning the hijab. When people (other hijab wearers and non-muslims) stared at me, i'll just shrug and continue doing what i was doing. I didn't have a care in the world about what they'd think.
For me, it was just myself. My own thoughts, my own emotions, my own actions. It was a principle of "I'll do whatever i want to do. If you don't like it, fuck off."
Until one day, i realise how bad a person i was. If i wanted to corrupt myself, then don't drag my religion into it. I am a bad Muslim, but i love Islam (this sounds weird but let me be) and i don't want others to have a bad impression of the religion.
And so, i stopped donning the hijab, and promised myself that i would cover up once i manage to "clean" my character first. I hope to achieve this by the time i enter University, as by that time, i would have acomplished all my childish goals (like trying out stuff) and enter the "adult" world. Heh heh.
For those of you who read my morning posts about a bad day (which, i have deleted from your view), i would like you to.. uhm.. scrap that.
I was a meanie! I shouldn't have said that my day would be tainted due to old aunts coming over as well as random maids popping by. I was a meanie.. tsk tsk..
First of all, the maids. I really pity the old one (the one who's scrubbing the toilet). She worked her ass off from 12pm to 5pm, and she was paid only 25 bucks! I chided my mum, but apparently mum said she was asked to pay only 20 bucks. Aiyoh! So poor thing!
And i overheard from conversations, that she works sooo hard cuz her daughter just gave birth back in Batam. I mean like where the hell is her (the daughter's) husband?!
I guess sometimes we Singaporean kids don't realise how lucky we are. I can tell from the way she works, that she really needed the money. She was like
"Is there anything else i can do?"
"I don't think so.. Have a rest k.."
"No, that is not the case. Why not you give me some clothes. I'll iron them for you."
"Rest first k.. You've been working since just now.."
"No need to rest.. Just give me some clothes.."
And then she goes to iron them, calling once in a while for more clothes. Did i mention she scrubbed both toilets (they now SHINE), as well as mopped the living room and the computer room? And washed the dishes? And wiped the whole kitchen cupboards? And the kitchen floor? And the balcony floor? And the list goes on.. and on.. and on.. You know what i think? I think..
SHE'S SUPERWOMAN!
An old one though. Judging from the many missing teeth, the mess of white hair, the wrinkles, i guess around 50 plus-ish? Ehhh so poor thing lah :/ (Well, i did help out a lil so dun say i'm all talk but no action ahhh.)
And the second maid was nice too. The second one was a normal maid, the one who's binded by a contract. She helped mum cook and YUM it was delicious. So.. yeah.
And the aunts? They were actually very nice. I feel horrible for saying what i said. BAHH.. I feel bad. I made up by sitting in the living room all day, conversing with them when needed. Guilty katakaan. hehee.
I'm living a rather blissful and happy life right now. I really pray to God nothing mucks up.
Like for example, i pray that nothing happens to my mum. She's been dreaming alot lately about our dead relatives (aka Granny, Granpa, Brother) visiting and conversing with her and stuff. I hope it does NOT mean something bad. Maybe they just miss her.. or something. *think positive Faddy think positive*
I seriously had sooooo much fun during the last three days (inclusive of today). They say too much happiness and laughter will equate to sadness and tears soon after, but i really REALLY hope that won't happen. Bleargghh. Lets begin!
Oh wait, first of all, a belated happy birthday to Nurul Nalisa! Wahh dah 18 sehh. kekeke. Sorry Faddy lambat wish. Johore no reception maaah. hehe. Alright back to the story!
What was supposed to be a short movie and dinner outing on Sunday which would cost around S$70 turned into a two day trip to Johore which cost RM$700!! Haha.. All paid by my dearest aunty, mind you. Overall, it was a great trip with many many memories to remember by, as this was the first of the many many outings in the future that we (the 4 cousins + aunt) will embark on together. Oh in case you're wondering, next stop is KL or Bangkok! EEhhh cannot waiit!
For the first time ever, the bus we took to Johore was well, as you can see, almost empty. I was very amazed, as usually the bus will be jam-packed full of people trying to squeeze in like a pack of sardines. So i was very jakon-ish and kept irritating everyone else by muttering "wah the bus is empty.." throughout the journey. Siao Faddy.
The moment we reached City Square, all of us made a vote that we should grab something to eat as we were mightly famished. The cousins sounded that we eat normal food, but the aunty suggested that we try Japanese food. Soo.. ok. Japanese food it is.
Don't get me wrong, i've tried Sushis. Well, at least those cheapo ones lah, never the real thing. So the food thing was a totally new experience for me. I have to say i hate the noodle, but the sushis cruising by on the conveyor belt was nice. I especially liked the Sushi with tuna+mayonaisse as well as Sushi with some prawn thingy. Wasabi sucks though. huruhrur. Guess i'm not cut out to be Jepooon.
And the total? A whopping RM$160! Siao. I'd rather eat at some kedai mama. More filling! hahha..
After consuming half-cooked and raw food, we decided to grab a movie. But alas, all tics were grabbed (I mean cmon its only 10 bloody RM! So cheap!). We then decided to walk around, take photos and well, shop. -grins from ear to ear-
The aunty zipped zapped her Mastercard everywhere and Tadaaaaa all of us got a Tshirt each, bringing the total for clothes shopping RM$120. hhehehe. Best lah siak. I wanted to get an Adidas jacket (been eyeing on one for aaageessss), but damn it costs RM$299. Felt too bad to ask for it. Eh Faddy's not that thick-skinned orkay?
Since it was already 10plusish at night (we met up at 5pm), we decided, ok enough is enough its time to go home. Until we saw the freaking long, and i mean FREAKING LONG, traffic jam that is. We were grumbling about the jam, and the heat, and the squeezyness of the car (try cramming 6 adults in a Kancil), when suddenly;
Fauzi: "Alahh. So long lah the jam. How long you think we take to reach singapore ah?"
Kancil Driver: "Like that should be around 3 to 4 hours.. Never been these jammed up this week."
Everyone: "Wtf?" (ok i made that up, but the expressions were singing along the 3 words)
Fauzi: "hahaha. ok lah lets stay in a hotel lah.. hahah" (duh he was joking. The aunt has to work on Monday)
Aunt: "Wait ahhh." *Dials phone* "Boss, i'm stuck in Johore ah. I can't come to work tomorrow. Sorry ya." *Puts down the receiver* "Ok pakcik, take us to the nearest 4star hotel."
Cousins: "Wtf?" (ok again i made that up. but you get the idea)
hehehhe. It was fun! Jumping on the bed and playing catching in the room till 1 in the morning, disturbing the people at the reception, crying to Mohabattein (ok that was only me), all these while the makcik was laughing along. I told you right, which makcik will be cooler then that?! hahhaha. sigh. -smiles-
Ok sorry. I had to put that up. Weeeeheee. Treat it as a commercial break lahhhh. *coughs* We return to the 9oclock news.
We spent the next day watching a movie, as well as more windowshopping. Afterwhich, we took a train CHOOOOCHOOOOO ride home, to escape the (still) long jam. Eh very fun sia take train! hahhaa. It's another first time for me. Oklah i did take it once before, but that was like when i was... 5? haha. So yeah. CHOOO CHOOO! CHUGGA CHUGGA CHUGGA!! CHOOO CHOOO!!
I think i wanna sign up for autoroam soon, as it was kick-ass weird not being able to call someone for 2 whole days. It's just. weird :/ I missed that someone so badly larh when i was there. hahahhahaahhaha. ok i think all of you know who that someone is :P
And so that concludes my activities for Sunday and Monday. That makes it well.. 2 days. What about the third day, Faddy? What did you do today?
(ok i am like freaking tired and i cant be arsed to type, edit pics, and upload pics anymore. heheheh so here's a few.)
I've not met him for days, and he's disappearing to Msia for a whole bloody week next week DUH im going out with him! hahahha. It was a very very fun and sweet day. Full of walking and jogging and luging (YOU GUYS SHOULD TRY THIS) and laughing and eating and joking and sleeping on the bus home and.. the list goes on. *beams*
If only all memories were as sweet as these... Good night guys. Faddy OUT!
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 7:59 PM
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Holiday!
I'm gonna be a good girl here and spare you from reading further mushiness for the next 2 days.
Why?
Cuz my favourite aunt asked me and cousins out for a night in Johore!! Wowowweeee!! Free food free movies and (hopefully) free clothes!! wahahahaha.
I lurve my aunt lots man. No lah, not because of all the free stuff (though i have to admit that IS a plus point), but because she's an adult i can talk wholeheartedly with. Hehee. She knows my deepest darkerest secrets, and I, hers. I talk to her whenever i need smart advise (aka an adult's advise without the biasness) and whenever i need to pour out a secret. Wehehe.
Like yesterday, i chatted with her in her room (whilst getting a free massage) for like 2 hours! And we were talking about her life in the past. About the hearts she broke, and those which break hers, about clubbing, about office politics. haha. How cool-er can an aunt get?
Falala. Have fun y'all. I'm gonna gorge myself silly!
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 4:04 PM
Friday, December 09, 2005
Fragments. (Mushyness guaranteed)
As we sat on a bench near a toilet, i commented on the old lady manning the stall.
"She's so poor thing. So old, and yet have to scrub toilets just to have food on the table and stuff. I hope when i grow up, i don't have to do that."
He looked at me, and said
"You don't have to Faddy. I promise I'll take care of you until i die, and even after i die, i'll still watch over you."
This, coming from a man whom i just vented my frustration on 2 hours before. Now you know why i love him so much.
ok bye. -grins widely-
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 8:07 PM
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ eh fad. i got interesting conversation.
[[a.D.a.M]] BUT MUST REMEMBER, dun associate it in any way with islam tau
[[a.D.a.M]] agree?
[faddy] yada yada yada whattt
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ hahaha
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ for us, the first humans to set foot on this earth are ADAM n EVE correct?
[faddy] adam and hawa
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ haha
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ so yah.
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ but come to think of it.
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ its been said scientifically said that those who first set foot on earth were primeapes.
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ those hairy2 monkeys
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ wakaka. funny tho.
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ NIWAE..
[faddy] WHATS UR POIINTTTTT
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ so yah..
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ u tink eh.
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ so, were adam and eve monkeys last ime?
[faddy] eh a'ah eh (haha faddy bodoh baru realise)
[faddy] hahahhahhahhha
[faddy] thats cool ady
[[a.D.a.M]] who the heck invented what we say?
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ human nature?
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ in the first place.
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ how did it evolve?
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ last ime..
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ cavemen talk with growls n stuff.
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ NOT english.
[faddy] so they develop ah
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ who was that smart ass who thought of this?
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ u say they develop?
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ BUT then.
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ how did they start from scratch?
[faddy] haha they all made a meeting.. and started creating the alphabets
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ yah
[faddy] u mean u didnt know that? (aha)
[[a.D.a.M]] haha
[faddy] anyway
[faddy] i like that adam and hawa thing
[faddy] maybe u shud blog about that
[faddy] why u suddenly think of all that ah
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ becos.
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ u talked about my sedare being the org utans
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ haha.
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ if u didnt know
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ i haf A VERY VERY inquisitive mind
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ so, my main point is, who were the real species that set foot on earth?
[faddy] hahahhaa
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ monkeys or adam n eve?
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ or, are adma n eve monkeys?
[faddy] i guess its adam and eve lah. i choose to believe in islam..
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ DATS IT FADDY
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ u go gerl
[faddy] adam and eve are human
[faddy] its stated in the quran
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ i was hoping for that answer
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ haha
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ cool~
[faddy] so all the scientists can go eat shit!!
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ all these are just mind games
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ u know
[faddy] why are they so happy about being related to monkeys anyway
[[a.D.a.M]] with the internet and all.
[faddy] isnt it kinda derogatory
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ alot of false truth.,
[[a.D.a.M]] haha
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ u see
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ i twisted ur mind abit rite?
[faddy] i mean like.. "Yay im a monkey!!" wtf?
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ as in, i made u think. riote?
[faddy] hahaha
[faddy] yes ady
[faddy] watever floats ur boat. haha.
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ dats y
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ haha
[faddy] so please put that brain to good use
[faddy] and start studying chem!!!
[[a.D.a.M]] ™ y the hell cant i send u a wink?
[faddy] cuz im attached so u cant flirt with me
[faddy] HAHAHAHA.
- end of conversation -
So i'm supposed to say the following, or Ady will kill himself as he needs artificial things to make him happy. here goes "Oh my God Ady is so damn smart like wahhhhhhhh!". Ok yeah. hehe. there you go boy. But really, sometimes he makes me think lah with whatever shit he has in his mind.
I was frustrated everytime someone types on their blog "I want an mp4". I seriously thought it was a new gadget, so i started searching around online thinking
"How the hell do these kids know about a new gadget that i don't know. I mean i thought mp4 is a format? How can they buy a format?!"
Until Ady knocked me in the head and said
"Eh hello! Since when do people say 'I want an mp3 player.'. They always say 'Eh i want to buy an mp3 ahhh.'."
Oh yeah -.-
I think im getting stupider as days go by.
On another happier note, my boyfriend is the sweetest person on earth. I <3 you sayaaaanggg. (ok you all can go puke now. I just HAD to say that. I'm sorry. please dont sue me. thanks)
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 10:12 PM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Nonsense!
My mum refuses to allow me to work, but she won't give me pocket money!! How to survive liddat?! Die die diee.
Oh yeah i have not been studying either. Unless you count reading Salina (next year's Malay Literature book) for the fourth time, studying. Ok i really really MUST get my butt off the chair and get to the library tomorrow, by hook or by crook! (right~)
A close girlfriend of mine has patched up with her boyfriend, and i have not heard from her since. Quite sad really. I think it may be due to two reasons.
1) I fought with her boyfriend. 2) In a way, i advised her to break up, as he was treating her like shit at that point of time.
So since they're back together again, that leaves me nowhere :/ Think i should start listening to Hakim's advise about not being a listening ear to couples in trouble. Bleargh~
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 10:14 PM
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Edited rantings + ATA pictures.
[[ EDITED ]]
Shortly after the hockey + breakfast session with the Sunshine on Sunday, the mother called;
"Where are you?"
"Just finished jogging and playing hockey lah.."
"But it's been 2 hours!"
"Yah lah.. then you want me to run 10m, hit the ball once and go home?"
"Who you with?"
"A friend.."
"Nag Nag Nag Nag Nag.. House arrest!"
Huwargh!! So sad.. I actually planned to accompany Fara to town today for her job interviews, but bleargh the Mumster glared at me with such bionic razor eyes which emitted profound promise of a longer house-jail term, so I had to pass that. I'm sorry babes.
Holidays are almost over and what have i done so far? NOTHING. Ahhh its A levels next year and i STILL don't know shit about history. -stabs myself- Time to start studying! Thus the plan to head to West Coast Park tomorrow with the brother to read up on Economics. Let me repeat that: "PLAN." hurhurhur.
Anywhoos, Jannah still hasn't gotten around to giving me the pictures of the Asian Television Awards, so i guess i'll just have to make do with blurred shots from my 7600, as well as a few pictures from Hafi's Photobucket. -Enjoy-
It was hilarious, the fact that all the teenagers who were cheering on were paid to do so. I was expecting throngs of other teenagers kpoing around to meet the artists, but since it was rather hush-hush, it was only us then. After standing around and taking photos of ourselves, the artists finally arrive. Talk about being fashionably late. Their costumes were stunning!
PS. Please do not adjust your computer screen. There's nothing wrong with it. It is the pictures i took which were blurred. heh. And one more thing, dont ask me who the artists in the pictures are, as i cant identify them. WAHAHAHAHA.
I took a LOT more, but sigh these were all that could be salvaged. In the other pics, you can't even distinguish where's the head. bleargh. Anywhoos, theres not really anyone whom i was dying to reach my hand out to (other then Taufik), as most of the red carpeters were Channel 8 artists -yawn-
After cheering and taking photos like nobody's business, it was time to become seat fillers! I sat behind a chinese actress who i think acted in Holland V (a chinese drama serial), and in front of some other chinese actresses. So i guess it was kinda cool, even though i don't even know their names. Wahaha.
Blah. The event itself was dry. The only time when all four of us were wide awake was when Taufik performed. Throughout the show, at least one of us would be asleep. hahaha. Oh well, at least no cameras caught us. The awards ended 2 hours later, and our job was done. All that's left is to collect the pay, as well as mingle with the artists.
Jannah and I were eyeing this cute Indian director, but unlike me, she had the balls to approach him for a picture.
"Hi.. May i take a photo with you?"
"What for? Haha. I'm a nobody! I'm not an actor or a singer or whatever! I'm just a director!"
"I know! But i just wanna take a picture with you cuz you're cute!"
And the result?... THIS.
Oh. My. God. If only i had done the exact same thing!! -slaps forehead- Bleargh. There's always the Asian Television Awards 2006! (is there?) hahahhaha. Well, even if there isnt, there's always photoshop! wahahahhaha. (im having a dandy time editing the pics and laughing to myself.)
But my skills are getting better right right rightt? hehehe. I need to find out the best possible way to make the skin color the same though. Ok ok back to the story.
Afterwhich, the Sunshine and i parted ways with the rest of the group, ate supper at McDonalds, and then went home with 20 dollars in our pockets for doing nothing! Yay! THATS what i call a happy ending. hahahhahahha.
Alright its 2 bloody am and i'm still blogging. Urgh. Time for beeeddd.
PS. The sunshine is away for hockey camp. boohoohoo. Noone to whine to for 3 - 4 days. So sad.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 12:21 AM
Saturday, December 03, 2005
Sunshine after the rain.
Can't believe you guys are going crazy over that photoshopped pic man. hahha. Sigh. Why am i allowing myself to be a subject of ridicule? Totally wrong!!
Do NOT think dirty.
I went out with the beige cow today (thats Faris, btw). It kinda sucks that i enjoyed the outing more towards the end and when i was at the peak of having a ball of a time, we had to part :/
Boring summarisation of the day meant for my memory, and not for your amusement. heh. (scroll down to see a picture meant for your amusement.)
- Watched SAW II. (Oh my God that show rocks!!) - Ate at Cheese Prata Shop. - Bought his iPod 30Gb (exact one as mine) - Ate Kaya Toast at Makansutra. - Strolled along the river with coconuts in hand. - Found out that Lelembut tics were all sold out :( - Decided to go eat ice cream at Swensens Funan. - Ate Satay at Sheng Shiong Taman Jurong. - Home sweet home.
Now, ladies and gentlemen, the moment you have been waiting for. The KING of all Epok-Epoks!! Look at how huge it is man. Bigger then my palm! After consuming the whole bloody thing, i felt like i had just eaten a proper meal. hurhurhur.
This was a shitty entry, as my mum made a shitty comment regarding tomorrow. My plans for tomorrow are down the draiiiinnn. ****!!! Urgh. Need to sleep this one off. Nights.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 11:15 PM
Friday, December 02, 2005
I want pics!!
[[EDIT! Apparently the Mustakim entry is on the 6/02/2005. hehehe!)
And so apparently none of the SA peeps are online yet :/ I want my pictureees!
By the way i couldn't stop laughing at my badhorrendous photoshopping skills. Kim kim.. I have failed as your student, i am so sorry i disappointed you. So may i have more free lessons? hehehe.
Ok ok last random thing. I think the world is really, really, REALLY small. I once blogged about this particular guy named Mustakim (check out the entry on 2/06/2005 06/02/2005) and today, i found out by accident, that he is Jannah's uncle!! hahahahahaha. Her mum's my primary school teacher and her uncle was my crush in kindergarden. Next thing you know, she and i might even be related!
And nope, i'm not gonna try rekindle old feelings and start sucking up to Jannah to increase chances of a meetup with Mustakim cuz i'm very very VERY much in love with the young man i am with today. Yes, the one and only, Muhd Faris Bin Sulaiman.
Ok did you guys just died-ed due to the excessive mushiness?
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 11:02 PM
Sneak Preview.
As mentioned, i managed to get a funny job at the Asian Tv Awards 2005. I had initially thought the thing would be a joke, due to its lack of publicisity publicity. However, Jeng Jeng Jeng!!
HAHAHHAHAH. I became fairer and have bigger boobies sia! The magic of standing next to Taufik Batisah. hahahahha. (If you're slow i actually photoshopped my face on his partner's lah!)
So anyways, lengthy updates when i get photos from Cheryl, Jannah or Hafi. -smiles-
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 9:48 AM
:: Editorial note ::
This is me before my hair frizzes up, okay? Haha :)
:: Faddy ::
17 goin 18.
Swinging single since 31st Jan 2006 :)
January.
This month, i found out JJC was chosen to be my house for the first 3 months, which was until i get my O levels results. For the first few days, i found it hard to made friends, even during the orientation camp. But at last, i managed to find friends in Shamini, Salbiah, Sangitah, Han Ning, Hai Lin, Yvonne and Nazeera. These friends helped me out a lot during the first 3 months, and proved to make every break a comedy skit.
I (as well as a million other students) received a letter from the Ministry of Education inviting us to join the workforce at this age, as a teacher. I had really contemplated on quitting the JC route and instead start earning money whilst studying through the scheme, but my teachers had advised me to get a degree first. Thefore, here i am.
On the way home from school one day, my group of friends and i were greeted by a Bangladeshi worker "working his thang" under the void deck in front of our school. It was my first time seeing a "thang" in real life, and i have to say it was a horrible experience. Wakaka. So chaotar and flimsy and hairy and... ok stop it Faddy. Hahaha.. I too made my first phonecall to the police force.
I started drifting apart with the Sephy Estrellas, my group of close Malay friends in Commonwealth Sec. The fact that they're in the same school (Yishun JC) and I'm not, made it harder to communicate due to the differences we had. Atikah and I (who used to be best friends) were no longer best friends, something which i blame myself up till today.
Last of all, for January, the Sunshine paid for half of my current phone, the 7600. There was no special event or whatevers, he just decided to treat me. Hehehee. I fell in love with the phone the moment i laid my eyes on it, and till now, my love remains true. I don't intend to change phones unless the phone dies or something.
February.
Malay - A1
E Maths - A2
Combined Humans - A2
Literature in English - B3
Physics - B3
Chemistry - B4
That makes my L1R5 a total of 14 points. BUT
Higher Malay - B3
CCA - 1 pt
Stay in JJC - 2 pts
14 - 4 = 10!
I finally got my long awaited O Levels results, and i did quite badly if compared to my PSLE aggregate, but if compared to my slacker behaviour in Commonwealth Sec, i guess i did pretty ok. At this point of time i really really regretted misbehaving, as i knew in my heart i could have done better. However, as the phrase goes, there's no use crying over spilt milk.
I discovered the amount of serenity praying at a Mosque can give a person, therefore i started popping by that place rather often for the next few months, praying there before and after dates with the Sunshine.
A gang named "The Society" was born. Even though i don't really keep in contact with them (except for Sangitah who is standing in the middle), i have to admit they provided one of the most fondest memories in my mind. We were 17, but we acted like we were 7. It was hilarious!
The Sunshine surprised me on Valentine's Day by turning up unexpectedly. He suddenly appeared at my Mom's shop, helped me to take care of the shop for a while, where he then whisked me off for lunch. Gave me my very first rose and teddy from a boyfriend.
I was still in contact with 2 of my closest friends, Ashrithaa and Claire (no points for those who guessed who is which). This time, we met up at Harbourfront. I guess at this point of the year, i still had my feet on the ground, and not too high up flying in the cloud of love. wakakka.
March.
I crashed SAJC, and later on Michelle and Claire crashed JJC. We had a dandy time at JJC (much better then SA, which was sooo boring thanks to Claire who was a bad tour guide) karaokeing at the lecture theatre. Haha. My first time singing in such a big place, disregarding the fact that there were no audience except for the two bitches.
I cut my hair at some nyonya stall downstairs. It was a new look, which looked nice for the first hour. Damn it. Why does my hair frizz up so fast???!!!
March is SUCH a boring month. haha.
April.
Ok i take that back. April has to be the most boringest month! There's no photos whatsoever in my blog in this month. Blearggh. I did notice, however, that Claire baby and I started to have rifts in our friendship. Hum di hum. Notice the pattern? I can't seem to keep my friends. -sigh- I just don't know hooowwwwwww. This sucks.
Oh and when Claire and I were drifting apart, i began to make another set of friends. The current JJC close friends i have - Fara, Dana, Rad, Sang (remaining member of "The Society") and Hazirah.
May.
Ohhhh. I think i know why April and May sucks. Haha. Due to the mini blog hiatus i was having. Therefore, hiatus = no blog entries = life unrecorded. I did manage to salvage however, that during this month,
The Sunshine and i discovered an almost perfect gravy for satay at the Esplanade, as well as a great singer named Richard Phillip. I have to warn you, however, that the quality of the gravy has since been deteriorating. Bleargh.
I too quit the school hockey team, much to the distaste of the seniors. Made some enemies amongst the hockey seniors when i made the decision, but yeahhh. All's good. Their hatred doesn't affect me much, i guess.
June.
It's the month of LOVE people! The sunshine and i celebrated our 1 year together, and boy did we have a great time celebrating it! We spent tons of money (both mine and his), went somewhere we've never went before, and for the first time since weeks before the event, did not snap at each other. Not even once! heh.
Not surprisingly, 99% of my blog entries in this month was dedicated to us. Oh and not to forget 99% of my life too. Which, of course, led my friends to hate me. But that, my readers, is a story for another month. Which is the month of...
July.
After 17 years of not really conversing with my cousins on my mom's side due to a misunderstanding, a miracle in the name of "Binsueb Chalet" happened. The chalet held sort of "forced" me to open up to them, and yeah. -smiles- Now i'm talking to them like regular family. Cousins like Hajar and Fiza.
Like mentioned in June, my friends started to get disappointed in me due to my imbalance in managing time between them, and the Sunshine. By friends, i mean friendS. All of them. Like Ashrithaa, Claire, Hakim, Atikah, Liyana, Pe'ah, Fara and Dana. Erkss.
Claire told me outright how she and Ashrithaa felt about it. Fara and Dana kept mentioning and hinting it to me while the rest were talking about it behind my back. I apologised to them, and put an extra effort in trying to balance my life. But, i think i've not really done really well enough. Have i?
This month too has resulted in the Sunshine giving me a ring, a total surprise. He had hidden it in my bag whilst i wasn't looking. So cute, right? haha. I loved the ring, but the girlish design made me quiver in my seat. However, a month later, i realised it does look nice, and damn right that guy knows me best. wahahaa. Did i mention it was the first time a guy ever gave me a ring? - smiles-
The new committee for the Malay Cultural Society was formed. Dana was picked to be the president, whilst Fara was picked to be the vice-president. The MCS is the first CCA i have which i'm quite passionate and proud of. Hidup Melayu! hhaha.
August.
Faddy is 17 years old! I had a great birthday this year, surrounded by my loved ones. The best gift i got was a surprise envelope and letter by the Sunshine, which contained $150, which i used to buy my first ever iPod - the iPod mini.
The most horrible fight happened between the Sunshine and I during this month. It happened on our 14th Monthsary. There was lots of shoutings and tears and damn it was embarrasing, something i'd rather not elaborate more about. During the tough brief time-out, the friends i just made up with came to my rescue. (Talk about great timing)
I finally met up with my besties after such a long long while. Over the dinner cum Faddy's bday celebration, we caught up with each other's lives etc. However, as it was already rather late, everyone had to rush off (including me). So that bit kinda sucks.
Kim pulled me out of my misery, by bringing me out. That cute bugger actually took pains to graffitise a cardboard box for me with my name on it for my birthday, and i was very very impressed. We spent the day with his friends and stuff, and from that day on, Kimi and I remained close friends up till today. He's the one i contact with the most as compared to my other friends from the past.
Oh and by August 28th, the Sunshine and i decided to give us another chance, which so far, has proven not to be a wrong move. -grins-
September.
I officially declare this month MCS and Mugging month! You should have seen the number of posts dedicated to MCS and Mugging, man. hahaha. Quite cool.
I devirginised myself as i went Sentosa for the first time! Wahaha. ok ive been there once before when i was really really young, so its not counted lah. i've to say i picked the right group of people to go with - the MCS people. Although it was raining, it didn't stop us from having so much fun. heh.
This month is the peak period for MCS. We cleaned up the MCS room, did an awesome job at the Mooncake festival, and most of all, most of us bonded really well together. I was really proud of us, and felt so much enthusiasm in the cca, something totally new to me. hahaha.
An outing consisting of myself, Nassy, Kimi and Farez occured. I had the best time ever, but now... What the future holds for us is a total mess, dude. -smiles- Perhaps time will take its course.
(Oh and i started adding text to my pictures too!) hahahha.
October.
October marks the month of Ramadhan. Here's a few people i broke my fast with throughout the month:
The Sunshine + Ex-Higher Malay + Rad.
The family on Dad's side.
MCS peeps.
My lovely cousin, Anz.
Like it says. Haha.
Kimi and Nassy.
October was also the time where the promotional exams were taking place, which brings us to the fact that i skipped my History promotional exams halfway due to a sickness. The first time ever in my whole life where i did that. Blearggh.
Tralalala! The Sunshine topped up some money, and i added a bit more, and i sold off my iPod mini and THIS is what i got! Wahaha. The iPod Photo 30Gb!! -grins madly-
October kinda sucks too, as Fara and I found out that my Chinone classmates actually told on us when they got caught skipping classes. Bah. What friends we have.
November.
I had the most expensive haircut i've ever had in my whole life! Actually it was only $26 uh, which may be the norm for some of you, but for me, i've been cutting my hair at the nonya shop downstairs for roughly $10, so yeah. Big Milestone. haha. The Haircut was done at Jantzen's by the way.
And then Hari Raya Aidilfitri came along! Wahahha. Show me the money!~
This Hari Raya was also the first time whereby i met up with the Sunshine's family - His parents, siblings, as well as his grandparents. It went well, although it could have been better. I'm just thankful that we got along fine. Hahaha.
And to add on to the blessings from parents news, it turns out that my mum already knows about Faris and I. And from what i see, she approves in her own silent way (at least thats what i got myself to see). Hehe.
My Mum and Dad had their first fight in the time span of the first 17 years i've been on this earth. It was a rather traumatising experience, with Mom crying and Dad shouting and... I'm just thankful normality resumed not long after.
The aunt paid for my cousin Wani and I to watch M Nasir at the concert. I have to say i love that guy a huge lot. He's a total all-rounder, dude. Noone can top him.
November was also the month where i stopped downloading illegal music!! Haha. It was such a hard thing to do, i tell you. I had huge withdrawal symptoms.
December.
Alright we're on to the last month of the year. Are you still awake yet? hahaha.
I finally had a mini-outing with the Sunshine's friends, through the job stint at the Asian Television Awards. They're quite different from the peeps at JJC, but yeah, i guess we got along ok. -smiles-
Oh and the uproar caused due to my photo with Taufik was uber-mega. I mean c'mon lah. I know you guys are jealous. Don't have to bitch about me until like that right? Whahaha.
December was also very the exciting, as it was the first time ever where the 4 cousins + aunt embarked on a mini trip. Although it was only at Johore, and it was only for 2 days, we had so much fun and tried so much new stuffs. It will be the very first outing out of many in the years to come, InsyaAllah.
The trip to Sentosa which i had with the Sunshine was one of the best moments i've ever shared with him. We luged, we chairlifted, we biked etc. Everything was monumentally perfect.
Afterwhich, he set off for a 9day trip to Penang, the longest time we've ever been apart.
I finally went open about my not-wearing of my tudung. It caused quite a commotion between my family and I, but i guess they're ok with it right now. The decision is only a temporary one, as i plan to wear it once again when i enter University, InsyaAllah.
My brother became a Mat! Wahahahahahahhaa. Ok enough said.