Burp.
"You.. What if i really become bald? Would you still accept me?"
"Yes i will lah don't worry."
"Really meh? Sounds too good to be true. haha"
"Really. But its your insecurity and lack of self confidence that will push me away."So it IS true what they say about guys liking girls with alot of self confidence (At least not too much to the extent that it bruises their ego). Time to start believing in myself!
*Burps* I am so full from yesterday's binge at Hyatt. Pictures and descriptions later!
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 9:51 AM
What fuels insecurity?
If only my hair is in a better condition and i ain't balding. If only my skin isn't as dark. If only i had perfect vision. If only my teeth are pearly-whites. If only i have bigger assets (!) Bleah.
Off to Johore today with the family to have a feast at Hyatt hotel. Good day.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 11:16 AM
The glass is half empty?
For the past few days during shower time, i noticed a huge amount of hair falling off my scalp. It made me worried, as the last time that happened was a few months ago. At this rate, i am really going bald.
Actually i'd rather be bald cuz of hair problems and not because of brain tumour or something. I hope 20-second blindness and sudden jabs to the brain does not equate to brain tumour, as it'd be very much a depressing situation for my mum to see another child* fall prey to that illness.
*My elder brother, who has since claimed his place in Heaven.
Amin.The recent reports on the upsurge in attacks on Muslims in the European countries have left me pretty much worried about my situation in Singapore. With the increase in much Anti-Malay/Muslim blogs and websites spun by the Chinese and perhaps Indians, i am pretty much preparing myself for bad news.
Like what Mr Shankar (the botak GP teacher) said
"In Singapore, it's no longer a case of 'IF the terrorists attack'. Its a matter of 'WHEN the terrorists attack'."I am so worried that one day i'll just get blasted when im boarding an MRT or a bus. I mean, I just can't picture an explosion happening in Singapore, but 5 years ago i too couldn't picture myself drinking water recycled from sewage. So it goes to say that nothing's impossible.
Fara and I were discussing about the Malay community in Singapore. Fara, being a Crab (Chinese + Arab) had no qualms about voicing her opinion while me, being me, joint in the discussion.
It started with her trip to Location A with her boyfriend to apply for a part-time job. It was unknown to her and her boyfriend that Location A was the home to one of the top Malay gangs in Singapore. And so while Fara and bf were minding their own business, the members of this gangs were trying to pick up fights. Like wtf for?! It was later mentioned that these gangsters as well as Mat Moto always try to pick up fights for no apparent reason, which, in my opinion, is kind of stupid.
And it seems that some of the Malay people just cant see their own kind succeeding a little bit in life. I recalled reading someone's blog (Podah i think?) about people jeering at him just because he was wearing a suit and stuff (which was NOT the norm for Malays). I myself, being a JC kid, have always been targeted with mean words such as "So you think you JC you big ah?" or to an action i did which was out of the norm (eg sms-ing in full sentences), "JC kid whaaat!". Buh.
Two days ago i heard news that an old mate of mine made a semi-unsound girl pregnant when he was 14 years old. She since became a mother and he is still now walking around scot free without having to carry the responsibilities of a father. And he is now spreading rumours far and wide about a close friend of mine being a sex-addict. Ayoyoyo. I didn't know people can have such black hearts.
Oh and i had a poop worth 12 bucks. As most of my friend's know, i can't poop anywhere except at home (unless its poop-or-DIE which only occured thrice in my whole life). So before the CPF learning journey trip, i rushed home to poop. My CT, Mr Gomez, yelled the shit out of me and since i had already missed the bus, i had to take a cab to Bishan. Damn it. 12 freaking bucks to sit in an air-conditioned room for 10 minutes.
This has been very much a pessimistic entry. To counter that, i'd just like to jot down that the Sunshine finally got hold of his dream phone, the Nokia 8800.
The phone's functions were rather disappointing, in my opinion. I prefered my 7600's functions (But then again the whole world knows i love my 7600 to bits). However, what made the phone stood out was the casing (which was very pretty) as well as its packaging. Overall, it's great for showing off that you're pretty loaded, but for daily usage, the Nokia 8800 is definately not the one for the job.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 8:42 PM
I've got a tummy. Bah!
Today was great, in the sense thati) I finally met up with Claire and Ashrithaa"What's up with the emo specs?"ii) Rhino got whoop-assed!"Eh Alien check out that hot malay guy!"
"Where?"
"There. At the bustop seat."
*turns*
"That's Pe'ah's boyfriend stupid!"
"Oh shit! That's damn embarrasing!"Today was NOT great, in the sense thati) Surprise! I have 2.4km which i was totally unprepared for!"Should i pon PE today?"
"What you mean pon?! Today 2.4km NAPFA test eh!"
"Wtf?!"ii) I spent 10 bucks on food alone."Oh God. I'm so hungry. Oooh! Nasi Lemak and Chicken!"
*Burps* 2 hours later
"Oh God. I'm so hungy. Oooh! What Rhino is eating looks nice!"
*Burps* 3 hours later
"Ok i feel like munching something from McDs."
*Burps* 30 mins later
"Ok desert now i guess!"
*Burps* 3 hours later
"Makk!! What you cook?!" And so i had slaved away my fats in the morning, only to pile on triple the fats i lost. Damn it! And i am getting a tummy, people! Why don't you just believe me! -Faddy jumps up and down, tearing hair in disgust, while her new big fat tummy slaps her face then her thighs -
Eew that's kinda gross.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 9:24 PM
Takes getting used to.
Having a silent handphone for almost a day sure takes some getting used to. I'd hear a handphone beep and on reflex, stretch out to grab my phone only to see my face staring back at me. Or i'd feel a vibration in my pocket only to find that it was in my head. Darn. I'm starting to imagine things. Haha.
Oh where oh where can my baby be?
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 7:54 PM
Randomness.
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here.
After two days of limping around in order not to move my left knee so much, the torn skin had managed to heal itself, leaving a rather fugly scab behind. There i was, happily jumping around, appreciating my new-found freedom of movement. And then i had to squat. The scab broke, and out poured yellow silicon-ish stuff. Thus i'm now limping everywhere so that the scab can start rehealing once more.
* * * * *The whole of my dad's side are having Granny's birthday celebration at some restraunt at Bukit Gombak right now. I contemplated on going, but the fear of failing yet another history test proved to be of a much higher priority.
* * * * *Some things that Mr Gomez said during Civics made me rethink about stuff. It's time i grow up and take responsibility in whatever i do, and not do stuff according to my whims and fancies. I might enjoy it now, but ten years down the road i might regret it.
* * * * *This morning when i woke up i felt that i'm no longer insecure. Its a fleeting feeling, but it made me happy. I want that feeling to come back. It made me believe that noone has the right to treat me like dirt just because i'm always giving in and keeping quiet about stuff that bother me. It's a great feeling to know that i deserve to be treated better.
* * * * *I also know that quite a couple of the Sunshine's friends are reading this blog. Peace be upon you. (PS Janet if you're reading this, please stop showing my primary school photo to everyone. Its so embarrasing!!)
* * * * *
When you're sad
Or when you're down
in this ice cream
Your sorrows will drown.* * * * *I was finally able to chat with Claire last night. It was fun. I miss her. We swapped songs and bitched and caught up with each other's lives. It wasn't as awkward as i thought it would be. Yay.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 7:54 PM
Seventeenth coming up!
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Had a great laugh when i received the following on Friendster from
Dayah.
Ohkay i doubt you can read that. It says:
*dances around computer in underwear*
faddy's birthday's coming up faddy's birthday's
coming up faddy's birthday's coming up
fun fact!
did YOU know...?
faddy shares the same birthday as my uncle-who's-
too-young-to-be-called-uncle-so-i-call-him-my-
cousin-instead 's birthday?
oh. and....
faddy's birthday is 2 days earlier but 2 years later
than farrhan-a.k.a-my-boyfriend-who-she-claims-is-
hot???
oooh. and faddy shares the same birthdy as my ex-
bf-farik-who-is-a-hella-good-drummer-now-but-he-
still-doesn't-forget-to-call-me-to-gigs-because-he's-
nice too?
ohkay just in case i forgot to wish you a happy
birthday because of the nemo i am,
happy birthday! :)
-dayahAnd last week, Fara said
"You birthday coming up right?"To which i had denied over and over again while she kept saying
"Don't lie. I remember its on the 1st of August."Damn i need to start remembering my friend's birthdays. Feel so touched that they bothered to notice mine. -knocks head-
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 9:54 PM
Missy Hockey!
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I bought new specsies on Thursday and was already sporting it on Friday. I knew it wasn't suited for my face, but i liked the design, so whatever makes me happy, i shall buy! haha. Some of my friends (including the Sunshine) didn't really like it, but most say its ok. Soo.. yeah whatever makes me happy. hahaha. And so after the day ended, it was concluded that Sang and Rad are getting their hands on one too.
Boriah lah nampaknyer. haha!
A last minute reminder by Rad about the inter-house Hockey tournament cancelled my plans to watch the AJC play. Drats. But hey, the game was rather fun, albeit the injury i got. -sniffs- Pus is now oozing out of my wound and i am so disgusted.
I played the Kickbacker in the 4 a-side game. Damn i suck! haha. Ain managed to put 6 freaking balls past me. Like wadabubba. But during the last game i was rather pissed with myself, thus i kept swearing and cursing and whacking whatever came my way. wahahhaa. -laughs sadistically- (but nyeah they still got 2 balls past me damnit)
I miss playing Hockey larhs. Somehow i clicked with most of the J1 players, and we talked cock and took loads of pics whilst waiting for our turn to play. Joanna, Rad, Aileen etc asked me to join them back (i suspect its only because they are short of players), and i was considering it. However i realised this morning that i can't possibly do that since i'm part of the Executive Commitee of MCS/Malay Dance. Bleah.
I'm hoping Joanna will give the nod for me to become a voluntary player. haha. Which means, i'll come and go according to my whims and fancies. wahahhahaa. I wish.
I went with the Sunshine today to study and check out the newly-opened National Library. Damn huuuge i tell you! 13 stories?! For a frigging library?! By the time i got to the 7th storey via escalator, i was too tired to check out the books already. That plus the million over kpo visitors made it uber difficult to check out what books they have available. I shall stick to my neighbourhood library!
Nyeah my leg is hurting. I wanna go sleep. Nights!
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 8:29 PM
Haven't been replying tags.
Tags Replied.:: Ady ::[heyy gerl..like u saed to me..dun tink too much.. look ahead n cherish what u have k? smile]
Thanks Ady. haha. Kau reflect my words back to me eyy. haha. hows the play last night?:: Ain ::[fad, ur bf very sweet can! aku officially jealous!! aku pon nk carik matairt uh camni. hahha. =) tc babe]
teeeheee. Yes he is sometimes. Very much more nowadays. haha. Thank you! You take care too![hey ho. abt the trust thing, i totally agree. compromise & accomodate beb. things will be fine. *smiles*]
Hear Ye Hear Ye. CORRECT![awww. so sweeet. i am jealous!! *green eyed*]
Aler. haha. don't be. We have our fair share of downs too you know.:: Ah Boi ::[haiz.. there goes my suspense....]
Eep. Im so sorry. I did warn you did i? sorry aight.[hope everything goes well with u and ur gal frens...]
Insyallah. haha. It is going really well for now. -smiles-[haiyoh, the bride pic very side ways.. cannot see!... must show full frontal...]
haha. susahlah nak amek pic frontal. the official cameraman keep pushing me out of the way! citot.[Ive give up on pesta perdana for along time. no real talent has ever deservedly win.]
Hear ye hear ye! I agree![Very the LOMANTIC hor.. oh yar... the JC students tat interviewed me were 1st yr student. They were doin some project.]
Yup correct. Its part of the A Levels subject. Mine is going horribly! i need doctors to interview. know any?[glad it turned out well... then expected for u!... ]
haha. what is that supposed to mean? hahaha. anyway, yeah im glad too.[hhmmmm... why all the
cancel?]
haha. group politics. i dont want anyone feeling that im all airs.[wahahahahah... TEH SUSU makes u go meh??? i drink teh susu everytime I go out... does not help at all.. hahahaha]
haha. yeah it does!! my friend told me its because of the concentrated milk. Maybe you should try adding more milk?[oh yar.. tat sounded very KINKY....]
hahhaha. oh well. put two girls, two sticks and a ball together and we can have more kinky stuff going on.[life is abt balance. seriously, i believed frenship means a lot more this time round.]
Thanks Ahboi. haha. i've given everything a thought. Insyallah things will be fine.:: Aziz ::[hmmm....2 tag boards?...where'd u get that idea from? anyways...big hello to ya
fadh]
Hello! haha. i got the idea from you, sir! hahha. anyway youve been away from cyberspace for quite a long while now, haven't you?:: Duan ::[hope evrything goes well wif u and yr frens: have a good week ahead alrite?]
Thank you very much! You have a great weekend too![YAy~ u're the treasurer~ now must treasure hunt~! k that was lame sorry. Have a good week ahead, faddy! be a good gerl k?]
Ahaha. That WAS lame. the lamest i've seen of you as of yet. haha. dun apologise for it made me smile.[HArlow Faddy~ long time neber tag~ gd to see having great times in sch & wif yr bf.. take care aite~]
Thank you very much! and you're having a ball of a time with Siti-kus tu i see![i missed baybeats too. Quite annoyed but wat to do rite?? haizzzz]
Oh Well. We do have next year! -wink-:: Faris/Quik88 ::[didnt know pigs could talk]
Haish. You very well know who that was. haha.[pls go for the annual ppcsg gathering on friday nite everyone..its THE place to be.]
[huh..wats a ppcsg gathering?]
[its a gathering where all the latest cool gadgets be unveiled and where ppl frm all walks of life will be there to share experiences with their gadgets, we can also make many new frens too!!]
[ouh dats so cool!!..i wanna go!!..where is it held?]
[it will be at microsoft spore frm 630pm tis fri...hope to see u there everyone!!]
MasyaAllah. What a lame boyfriend i have. hahha.:: Fiza ::[hey fad!had a great time at de chalet esp in de pool!hehe]
me too me too!! Maybe we can arrange an outing sometime?[fad,can u send me de pics wen we were walkin alng de road & bbq pic?thnx!]
haha. Have i done that? I've forgotten. Eh i think i did. hahaha.:: Hak ::[whus tt gal bside sha sei? niwae aku nk dtg.. but it was raining n my fren haben finsh her proj..]
Thats Faradilla aka Faraminah. haha. she's my classmate uh. niway sad u didnt come. we had a ball of a time. haha.[Qstns answered in my blog.]
Aight. read it. you're forgiven. i hope i am. -smiles-[uhuhuhuh,, boohooo..... im at poly.. muahahaha.. i will be haunting u fadi.. im now in class.. haha..]
oooh im shaking. takotnyer. oooooh. Giler.:: Kinky ::[hey.. wat's my pic doing in ur entry..? I'm 3rd from the right...:D]
Gosh. Tak tau malu. malas nak layan. NEXT![sometimes it takes the words of others to realise how much we have...]
True true. Sigh.[wow! so many expensive gifts!! n darl.. im in da same predicament wen it comes to my family.. my paternal side.. haish]
haha. Not really lah. Anyway, maybe you should try do what i did. Im quite ok with them already. Yay! Best of luck to you, k?:: Lisa ::[ur tagbrd died on me i tink. okay anw heh u blogged abt me eeehhh! nasib aku bace blog kau. btw missed u faddy. =)]
i missed you too lis. Dah lama tak chat online eh. -sniff-[ur bf is sucha a darl, sweetie. take good care of him alrite? *hugs]
Insyallah. Thanks Lis.:: Liyana ::[i'm sorry fad...i dun tink pe'ah's in it]
You're forgiven. And i talked with Pe'ah already.:; Momox ::[sigh... love... ]
Sigh? haha. Love is something goot man! Love is all around us. Doesnt have to be BGR you know.:: nAs ::[LMAO after reading ure entry. nyehhh. faddy is getting all mushy. hahahaha. ]
[errr faddy. dont mind me saying this but u are pretty mushy recently.]
[not recently but since 3 or 4 months ago? erppp. ]
Teeheeheee. Can't help it, dear. Its in these darn hormones.[eekkkk. whats that thing that cost $100 for faris? and how come the shirt so exp? waahhh rich sia u!]
haha.. Its a Fossil watch bebeh. Nice arhh?[all the best for term 3 babe! i am gonna start school soon. haiz. i am like so yesterday. hahahahah. :p]
Thank you darla! Anyway, this is so lembab nye reply, but hey! better late then never! haha. have fun in school dear!:: NuRuL ::[abt the jorah ahmad thingy, yesssahhh. totally agree beb]
hahha. yes yes. i think 21397393 other people also agree with us.[dat motorola v3 is sleek uh. but its kinda big when it's opened up ey]
Hmm. yeah kinda. actually i don't like the phone also. but i was just making it sound good cuz i wanna sell it. hahaa.[poor alias kadir & other comedians who devote their lives on comedy. lol i feel like im flooding ur taggie heheh]
Yes you are flooding, but i like. Flood more! haha. and yes, poor alias kadir. i like him a lot.[eh power. i love ares too. kazaa is like damn slow la >(. aniwae gd thing u got an xtra taggie]
Ares rocks! Its like a huge pirated pasar malam where you can get anything! Anything![wat's SDM btw? err]
Its supposed to be S&M. hahaa. Kinky sex. weee!:: Pe'ah ::[fad.......... i'm nOt coming scH tmr.... haHa.... sO c ya on wEdnesday!!! muackz!]
Wahh. first time kau tag. haha. ponteng satu hari tak cukup eh! nak 2 kali! ishk ishk.:: Pig ::[good to see tt u're enjoying yr life now. just find itpretty sad tt iout friendship wont really be part of the past u'll remisnisce nxt time..tc]
We've already talked about this privately.. so yeah. =):: Salbiah ::[ If u notice, Jorah Ahmad slalu pegang tangan laki org... ]
aaaaaaahahahaha.[Sang's birthdae coming rytes?? Miss her...]
haha. correct at that time u posted. It has since passed. ehehee. slow nyer reply. sorry yerrr.
:: Shak ::[yeaps. aaron dun deserve to win dehz. lame-o sial..]
aper nak buat. he has droves of grrls behind him mahh.:: Stephie ::[heyya..link mi k?]
Err. How to link you when you dont give me ur addie? haha.:: Sufyan ::[hey congrats for ur gd results. i wish i can get da grades like urs...so susah..]
Dey thambi! You in NJC! Standards are higher there! what do you expect! haha. if im in NJC i think i'll get all Fs.. maybe a couple of Os. haha.:: the star ::[term 3 slapped u in the face? violent seh..charge it for physical abuse!!don't let them get away with it!]
MasyaAllah. That's so lame. haha. anyway, WHO ARE YOU?! ayoyoyo.:: Yat ::[Yo fad, if your grades are like that for As, i suggest you apply for Harvards]
Hur hur. Fun-ny. Whack you then you know.[Yo Fad, as your legal advisor, I advise you to stop mentioning that you're downloading such stuff from the net.]
Thank you very x1000 much for that advise yat! i've since taken it down.[Yo Fad, I need ur help. Kinda. Need to have songs that are very malay and without any singing inside. You know, those background songs which relaxes the mood in concerts and stuff....... U haf any?]
haha. already gave u the links and stuff. Thank Irfan aight. he passed them to me.[Geez, dad is nice ey... My dad'll force me to sch even though half my body is blown away!]
hahhah. bedek seh. kesian ur dad difitnah sebegitu skali. hahah.Fuuuhh. That took 45 minutes. Too shagged to talk about my new look. hahha. Till the cramps go away!
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 9:45 AM
Warning : Harry Potter Spoiler included.
I sat in front of the text
Enduring sunshine and storm
For 5 hours of full-steam reading
To experience Dumbledore's killing.
And when the words slowed to a halt
i almost tore my hair out
I'm craving for more JK Rowling
The past 5 books i am now buying.
I'm now waiting for his sms
Whilst in a state of undress
We're not being naughty, you lamer
I'm just changing to meet him later!
Till the homeworks are cleared
And the room cleaned
Faddy signing off for now
- Gives a wave, and then a bow -
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 4:33 PM
Sometimes i wish you'd remember who i am to you.
Sitting together, with pouring raindrops in the background. Talking together, with papers a flutter with every blow of the wind. Laughing together, with cameras clicking on every opportunity.
It was fun. Laughing at each other's stupidity and carelessness without a worry. Time flew by, although the stories seemed to go on forever.
I love having grrlfriends to share my ups and downs with.
Oh.. and sometimes i wish
you'd remember who i am to
you and a part of me hopes that
you will never take me for granted.
You are the best i've ever had, so i hope i don't ruin it for
us. I love
you.
[[ Till later ]]
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 7:39 PM
Today's schedule.
In theory.0800 to 0900 - Physical Conditioning (sounds cooling but its NOT)
0900 to 1000 - Free period (aka slacking in the canteen)
1000 to 1100 - Civics (Lets talk about sex baby!)
1100 to 1200 - History Tutorial (walking on glass moment)
1200 to 1230 - History Lecture by Koh (doing maths homework)
1230 - Schools OVER!
In reality.0800 to 0900 - In bus with Pe'ah to WcP.(Gossiping session)
0900 to 1000 - Wait for Fara to arrive whilst eating breakfast.
1000 to 1400 - Get some studying done! (Get some studying done!)
1400 to 1600 - Pool at Clementi Stadium. (Yay!)
1600 to 1900 - Meet the Sunshine to return his Cd.
Good plan? I think so.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 7:27 AM
Tales to tell.
[Edited at 8:27 am] I am very very sad i didn't go for Baybeats. Been bloghopping and everyone said it kicks ass. Next year then. -sigh- [/edit]
JJC's Malay Cultural Society had our Annual meeting last Friday, and the turn-out was, simply put, horrendous. Out of the 40-odd malay students in the JC1 cohort, only 5 turned up. Namely Dana, Fara, Zirah, Halim and yours truly. Very disheartening to see that the Malay community in the school are less then willing to get together as one. Can't blame them though.
Not pointing any fingers, (sorry Jc2s) but the MCS was in quite poor management when it was introduced to us. Communication was much less then efficient while rivalry and school-politics marred the club's progress. Pooh!
So thus the JC2s decided to step down, and we were interviewed (I told them outright that i didn't want any post as i hate responsibility heeehee). They took such a long time discussing, and i was getting bored, so i got the other 4 to play shadows. waaaha!
That's Fara's hand acting as a rabbit, while Dana's, Zirah's and my hands were acting as crocodiles. We were in scene II act III, where the poor wabbit was being eaten up by the meany crocodiles (which were birds 30 seconds before that). I quote Fara
"I think we are all more childish now then we were in Secondary and Primary school. Tsk. And i thought JC is supposed to mature us."After roughly 2 hours of alternate discussions conducted by
Cikgu, the JC2s and
Cikgu finally reached a conclusion. The 5 of us who bothered to turn up were ushered into the room, facing the 10 odd JC2s.
I was given the post of
Bendahari for Malay Dance, which is a nicer and more culture-ish word for Treasurer. Buh! They have given me responsibility! Die. I hope i won't become like T.T Durai and somehow get rich by getting the JC1s to pay up. Imagine... $5 per person. 40 Malays. $5 x 40 = $200. Damn! heeeeheeee.
Faradilla, the new MCS Vice-president (aka President of Malay Dance)
Noridana, PRESIDENT of MCS. *salutes* Her win was quite unexpected as she wasn't in the list of candidates.Halim was made Treasurer for MCS while Hazirah was Secratary for MCS. Oh and Pe'ah got Secretary for Malay Dance. So concluded the Annual Meeting. The group had a discussion with Cikgu on how to improve the dire situation the Society was in, and we hope to achieve greater heights under the new leadership! *Thunderous applause*
-.-Heeeeheee. This is fun. Blogging at 7:44am without any pipsqueak brothers to bother. Lets see. What else have i not mentioned. Oh yeah my results. -sigh-
A-Level SubjectsEconomics...A
Malay.......B
History.....E (wtf)
AO-Level SubjectsMaths.......A
GP..........B
I've GOT to pull my history back up to at least a C in time for promos, as well as an A in Malay. I'm quite satisfied with the other subjects though. Though i have NO idea how i'm going to pass my French Revolution. No matter how i try to listen to Mdm Koh's lectures and tutorials, i gave up. She's just too eccentric and nuts (although kind-hearted), that most of us just cannot absorb anything from her. Buh.
------I was going down the stairs the other day, happily mouthing Wild World by Me First and the Gimme Gimmes, when suddenly i let out an "EEEK!". I saw a huge lizard, bigger then the size of my palm, on the plant of a neighbour's. In order to down the stairs, i had to pass by that darn plant, so i stood rooted for 5 minutes waiting for the lizard to scamper off. I waited.. and waited. And i found it suspicious that the lizard didn't move. I got a tiny pebble nearby and flunked it at the lizard. It didn't even cower in fear. No no. It just looked at me with it beady eyes, and that was when i realized it was
PLASTIC.Chicken McNugget. Luckily there were no neighbours around to snigger behind my back.
The Sunshine and I finally caught the much-hyped Fantastic 4. It was ooohhkay lah. Quite draggy though, and the plot is kinda boring. So, yah. hahaha. I'm getting lazy to type already. Been typing this entry for the past 40 mins. haha.
Oh and i'm meeting Claire later on in the evening if all goes well. Butterflies are fluttering around in my stomach. Faddy nervous? THAT, my dear readers, is an understatement.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 8:06 AM
Tired dey!
Very tired from school, from studying, from MCS meetings, from playing "Ote", from playing shadows and from spending time with the Sunshine whilst trying my best to balance friendships. Haha.
Till tomorrow. Good Night.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 10:59 PM
Flashback : Abang Yan's wedding.
The groom's entourage was huuuuge. The Dikir/Gamelan/Kuda-Kepang group itself took up a whole bus while the family members took up 6 cars. The accompanying group consisted of 4
Barongans (The kids in masks you see above), 6
Kuda-Kepangs (The ladies riding cardboard horses), multiple swordsmen and umbrella holders as well as 14 or so
kompang players. The loud melodious music emitted mixed with the cheerful atmosphere of the unification of two lovers was unbeatable; smiles were evident all around, and curious neigbours peeked out of their windows all the way from the tenth floor.
This was my first time seeing my new cousin-in-law. Such a pretty lady. Somehow Abang Yan gets all the pretty Indian-Malay mix. His ex-fiancee too was an Indian-Malay mix, and damn was she hot. But i guess this lady here is much hotter. Fuh! The
Kompang boys kept staring at her (not me boohoo) throughout the whole session. Very pretty, yes? -nods-
After heading to the bride's side, we later came back to Abang Yan's side. Took alot of photos and mingled with my cousin's cousins. Thats me on the left, then Kak Lili (who's my cousin), Caca (who's Lili's cousin on the other side) and Ica (my besty cousin). We ate, escaped from helping out, became camwhores and ate some more. It was a wonderful day.
I guess the new 'in' design for wearing the tudung is just to wear it as a scarf. Hmm.. i did that once or twice in the past, so i guess i shall dig deep into my wardrobe and search for that darn long tudung. To keep in fashion, i shall! A little digression here. After watching my cousins spend 45 minutes just painting their faces (make up duuh), those hormones of mine have stirred up and i am now contemplating the best way to approach my cousin for make-up 101. haha! -paiseh-
May Abang Yan and his newly wedded gorgeous wife live happily ever after. InsyaAllah. Amin, Amin, Ya Rabbala'lamin.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 3:59 PM
Between velvet covers.
Whilst on the way home this rainy evening, i received an sms from the other half
"Oh damn.. I left something in your bag.. where you now?.. Help me look for it!"I was mumbling something along the lines of
"Haiyo. Hope its nothing important. So tiring if i must do an about turn since i'm already halfway home."So i searched in my bag, and found a plastic bag. I pried it open. Inside the bag was a paper bag. I pried it open. Inside the paper bag was a box. I pried it open. (Damn im kpo) And inside the box, was a ring.
I was smiling like a nutcracker when i got it, as it's been quite a while since he had last given me a sweet surprise like this. Even though the ring was not quite the one i had envisioned in my mind, the "unexpected-ility" and the total sweetness was just so heartwarming. heeee. Thanks, Is! Muacks!
Stop rolling your eyes. So-freaking-what if im blogging about my other half? Its the highlight of the day, so it's not wrong that i want to record it down. Buh.
And i can't seem to set a date to go out with Rhino and Claire cuz Rhino keeps running away from me. Sheesh. She's either ignoring my presence, or trying to make a quick getaway. Tell me how, Claire Chan?
Nyeah! One more thing. I totally screwed up my Malay Orals!! I need to speak Malay fluently again! Buh. The teacher was practically having raised eyebrows 90% of the time, had to translate 70% of what i wanted to say (as i kept speaking in English) and kept saying "that's all?". How to become Malay cheacher i ask you?
But i guess the best phrase goes to Radhiya:
"Pekerja-perkerja dari India banyak diorang nyer bagos dalam IT."I'm just too darn lazy to put up wedding photos right now cuz i've yet to rename the 137 pictures waiting in the "unnamed" folder. Till my laziness fades away then!
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 9:35 PM
Stupid Rhino.-
Stupid Rhino sms-ed this (or the essence of it)
"See lah now you're stupid letter! Now i feel damn awkward with the Alien (Fadhilah). I don't know what to talk to her about. Like avoiding her like that."The catch is, she was supposed to send it to Claire of course. But noooo! Rhino being Rhino, she smsed it to me. Dooooooh! Lamer. So i scolded her and told her that what's the use of telling me, and then avoiding me? If that's the case might as well not tell me. haha.
I've got lots of nice pictures of Abang Yan's wedding which i will put up once i free myself from the truckloads of homework and tests. Good night.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 9:28 PM
Letters to you.
The past three days have been a helluva ride. With tears brimming in my eyes in the canteen (Yup Fara, you guessed it right), tears actually flowing upon reading a letter and tears too stubborn to get out when i learnt of the words flying across the netspace, directed towards me.
I guess its time to clear the air, and what better way then to "have a talk" with the mates who made this events possible.
To Fara and Dana.Hey you two. Thanks for the comforting sms's and the concerned shoulder you guys lent me. I know you guys meant well, and i knew there was a truth in what you said. Stop repeating that you were joking, cuz hey, if 6 other people said the same thing, there's got to be truth in it, yes? haha. Anyway, i don't how my friendship with the other 6 will continue (its up to them now, i've made my move), but i think that the three of us still have got what it takes to start anew. I've learnt my lesson hopefully, and i need you guys to help me along the way. Remind me if i'm repeating my mistakes. Thanks alot. Muacks.. See you Monday.
To Claire (and Rhino).I guess i owe the biggest apologies to you guys. Thanks for waking me up, and taking time off to tell me how you feel. I feel like an arse for doing what i did, but like what you said Claire, its spilt milk. Now i'm off to get a new carton of milk, so i hope you'll receive it. I hope your letter was not the end of what we once had, instead it was a new chapter, a new beginning. I do want to gossip with you again, i do want to bounce all over your bed, i do want to ask "is it halal?", i do want to remark "But is Michi locked in the room?", i do want to whine and get you to on MTV, i do want to whack you and get Rhino to be the referree, i do want to have three-way conversations late at night talking about random stuff, i do want to hear you guys screaming "alieeeen" followed by "so irritating". I've throughly missed doing these stuff, so i hope after clearing the air, we'd actually restart, and not end it here. I really do miss you guys. And thanks for telling me.
To Hakim, Liyana, Atikah and Pe'ah.Yeah, i guess i was hurt upon stumbling upon such a news on Yana's blog, so forgive me for being pissed for the first half an hour. I guess now i understand it's my fault. I'm sorry for neglecting you guys. I'm willing to start anew, and now it really is up to you.
To Hakim.Seriously, write me a letter, call me. I need to know
why.
To the other half.Thanks for understanding, Is. And for being there the most when i needed you. *smiles*
I guess that closes the whole episode. Happy posts should return by tomorrow. Good day. I have a cousin's wedding to attend. (I do hope there's
Sambal Udang.) Yummy!
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 8:18 AM
I am sorry.
2 days ago it was Fara and Dana.
Yesterday it was Ashrithaa and Claire.
And now accidentally i found out that Kimi, Ikah, Yana and Pe'ah are in it too!
God must have been working overtime to synchronise these three "discoveries" at the same time. Please God. I've been trying to work things out. Would you mind not giving me another slap in the face tomorrow? Thank you, yah?
And just as a safety cushion. To any of my friends who have been talking about me spending too much time with my other half and neglecting all of you, i am sincerely sorry, and i am trying my best to sorten out my life.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 10:01 PM
The day after.
He dragged me out of bed and got me to cheer up instead of wallowing in self pity. No, seriously man. Fever + Flu + Sore throat + highly strung emotions = bad bad Faddy.
It was nice. Being sick and broken and having someone pampering you. hurhur. Not in much of a mood to blog though. See you guys around aight. And damn im sorry i haven't been replying those tags in a loong loooooong while. Soon, perhaps. Now to the other bloggers, continue writing funny stuff to cheer me up, yes?
For the record, i have 1045 songs in my comp! yes yes!
Ady asked me this morning
"Hey Fad. Need a favour.. You have the (insert some mainstream pop/rnb music here) song? Can pass to me?"
"Nope don't have. Anything else?"
"How about (insert some mainstream pop/rnb music here)?"
"Nope. So sad ya? In my 1k songs, not one is your kind. hahah."
"Yah lah. You lah. Listen to all the shout-shout kind of songs. Eeyer."
"To each his own, Ady. To each his own."
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 8:36 PM
Wet pillows.
I cried to sleep last night, something which i've managed to avoid for months. Words from a friend who cares has made me realised how a bad friend i've been to them. It's time i wake up and sort out my life and priorities.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 8:25 AM
Don't waste your time.
Condolences to the victims of the London bomb blast.That being said, i realised how much i've taken my safety in Singapore for granted. Never in a million years can i picture an MRT being blown up (touch wood!) How to? There's no bins whatsoever for the terrorists to plant bombs in (or for us to dispose rubbish for that matter). Adverts on reporting "suspicious looking" bags to the police are plastered 5 feet from one another. And every 5 minutes, a voice will engulf the whole station reminding us to report susicious articles. Blablabla. Rather irritating, but yeah it works.
School was non-existant today, and i slept for a record of 10 hours! Ok that wasn't really a record as i had slept for 17 hours once. Thats like 3/4 of a day! holy smoke! haha.
Got home totally shagged yesterday cuz of my itchy throat + flu + upcoming fever. Washed up, popped some pills, and was on my way to dreamland. Dreamland it was. For the 10 hours, i dreamt lots of dreams, all of which i've forgotten. It does involve alot of characters though, and was spun like a soap opera. Could have made a better drama for Channel 5 compared to "Bukit something Kambing". Damn if only i had writted it down upon waking up.
Dad woke me up for 5 minutes (dreamland interlude) at 5am trying to get me to school. I was feeling lots better actually, but i faked a sore throat, exagerrated how horrible i was feeling and Voila! No school! ahaha.
Kinda wasted my whole day away doing nothing except eat, watch tv, downloading gajillion songs and bloghopping. Oh i ate really alot. Like 1
Leng of rice to which mom remarked
"Did you eat that all by yourself?! Are you nuts?! And i thought you were supposed to be sick?! Which meant that you won't have appetite!"And i finished the whole chunk of Salmon. Salmons are like the most delicious fishies on earth.
"That cost me 5 bucks! You were not supposed to eat it alone! You're supposed to share it with you brothers! Tsk!"Regretted for a while on my decision not to go to school. Its 5:33pm now and i feel like i should at LEAST do somethings that would make my day worthy. I've come up with a list of things to do before i sleep today.
1) Clean my room.
2) File up all my stray worksheets.
3) Get a long luxurious bathe lasting for more then 1 hours. (havn't had the luxury of those when school started)
Now this has been such a nonsense entry. Sorry for wasting your time! harhar.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 5:09 PM
Wordplay.
I was in the mood for hockey today (yah yah even though i'm out of the team), so i crashed the 'hockey training' for a while today. After doing dribbles and passes, Radhiya and I were bored. So we decided to face away from each other, spread our legs apart, and try to score by getting the ball to roll in between the other person's leg (refer to above pic).
After i successfully managed to score for the first time, she got excited and giggled
"Yay! Now its my turn to put it in your hole."Silence followed that sentence, and 3 seconds later we erupted in a fit of giggles. I said
"That sounds wrong, Rad! Why not say, 'Now its my turn to put it in between your legs."She looked at me, eyebrows hitched, and we started laughing all over again. Damn were we bored. haha.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 7:33 PM
Dieting Tips.
I have been suffering from constipation for the past week, only managing to poop once. It was horrible i tell you, waking up every morning, seeing the bulge on your tummy and visualising all the poop just waiting to get out. Then i'd sit on the loo bowl for 15 mins or so trying to coax everything out, but to no avail. This morning, i almost died when i saw a pregnant lady looking back at me from behind the mirror. My tummy's too big! Too big! I need to shit! And so... I dug out my secret pooping potion.
Teh Susu.I swear to you, it works wonders (at least for me). I drunk two cups of it, and sat bloghopping for 10 minutes. Suddenly, fireworks started exploding all over inside my stomach, and there gurgles could be heard. It was time...
I guess it worked too well. I had to visit the loo 3 - 4 times. It was painful, but *taps flat stomach* so, so worth it. Yay! So try the teh susu yah! Cheaper, but more effective then any Xando tablets! hahaha.
And for the record, i love him for being so patient with my tantrums day in and day out. Noone can beat that. NOONE!!!!!
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 9:34 PM
If only...
Haaaaaahaha. Ok i spent most of today completing the first draft of this piece of shit with the help of Chun Kiat who somehow was online 24 hours. Quite fun doing this everytime i saw him
"CHUNKIAAT!! YOU ONLINE?!"
"yah.. why?"
"Nah just wanted to ask whether u're done."When actually i didn't need to know. nana. Im such a cuckoo bird. The father came home with a holy aura around him, unveiling a packet of Chicken Rice (plus more rice) as well as Chng Tng!! Oh God, i think i'm starting to love him. My dad's great really, just very uhmm... silent? nyeah.
I so darn need to visit the toilet after gulping the packet of Chicken Rice in less then 8 minutes (i think), to which the other half had remarked
"So fast?! But that's impossible!!"Wahahaha. I'm such a glutton. yum yum gobble gobble. Experiencing high sugar level due to Chng Tng from Sweetrecipe Jurong Point.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 8:35 PM
I'm very free today.
Yesterday afternoon whilst the other half was away barbequeing poor fishies using a fire which erupted from sticks and dry leaves and went hiking from Clementi to Hougang visiting fugly brothels on the way (not that they went IN) with his Venture mates, i've decided to join the Commonwealth's Student Council Alumni annual meeting.
(Top Left going clockwise)
Adi (04), Faruq, Farhan (05), Rhino, Cheryl (04) and Fizah (05) It was rather horrible and downright boring at first, since the only people who turned up from my batch (the 2004 batch) were Jeremy, Cheryl, Adi and I. But things got preettyy ok when Rhino came and started her nonsense.
We slacked around in the canteen after the meeting and played ball games till we were downright tired, then we got home. And i realised how much ive missed serving the school. *boohoohoo
Although that sweetass boyfriend of mine ended his hike only at 530am and managed to sleep for only 3 hours, he insisted on meeting me today cuz he said he missed me. *awww hahaha.
So we went to our usual hangout place before grabbing dinner at Adam's Road. (His treat of course) Yum Yum! It was worthwhile lining up for 15 minutes just to get that scrumptious Nasi Lemak down my oesophagus (oh how do i spell that darn word?)
And thus we parted at Boon Lay interchange, where not long later i received an sms from him
"Thanks for today, dear. I really missed you these two days and thats why u wanted to meet you.. Sorry i was feeling lethargic all the way.."
I am very much a happy happy girl.The only -ve point is that stupid PROJECT WORK which i have to complete. Damnit. It seems like i did quite alot more then the rest (SEEMS like) and i am feeling rather frustrated. Buh.
I thought of the survey questions, i typed them out, i printed them, i wrote the whole freaking written report and most of the information i needed was in Fara's email (which of course i didnt have the password for) and thus i researched all over by myself and i am so tired!! Chunkiat and WeiZhong and Fara did analyse the survey and did research soo maybe we're on par but i just feel like im doing a lot of stuff. Sigh. I do think i work better alone. bleah!
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 10:02 PM
The long awaited overdue event that i had wanted to blog about but had not.
Contrary to popular beliefs among my brothers and I, it turned out that i did have a ball of a time during the family outing. It started out rocky at first, with me tagging Ica (my bestest cousin) everywhere she went.
When we reached there (i went together with my cousin and her family instead of my own family), the Magrhib prayers were on the way. It was quite ironic really, the bungalow opposite us blasting RnB beats while the 30 plus of us were murmuring verses off the holy Quran. haha. Anyway, i like the way my cousin-in-law led the prayers. Although the verses he read out were super duper long, his voice made up for it and made everyone feel very
insaf-y. sooo yeah. After the Maghrib prayers, we read out the
yasin etc till Isyak prayers commenced. Typical Mulim family-ish events. hahaha. And then the 'fun' began.
A family outing of the BinSuebs' are never complete until we have on of these! Its a trayful of rice and typical Malay dishes to be shared between 4 hungry souls. Since Ica and i were famished, we managed to steal one more chicken drumstick from the tray beside us. hehe!
After all of us had filled ourselves to the brim, we sat around in the hall for the "
Luahan Hati" section for the schedule. Its like a slot for anyone to go upfront and express our views regarding the family. For the first few minutes, noone really came up front, and all of us looked at each other as if by looking at others, we'll be spared from being called upfront.
At last Wak Don came up. Phwoar! He came complete with 5 poems i tell you!! hahaa. it was damn funny ah. Kept laughing here and there..
It was already 10plus pm when everything ended. Then it was free time - mingling period. Something i
dreaded. Again i followed Ica wherever she went, and kept quiet most of the time, listening to the cousins talk and feeling like an extra. (oooh whats new)
So i kept sms-ing the other half. Until he replied this
"You.. Just try mingling with them lah. Be positive. I mean if its true what you said that they don't really like you, then what do you have to lose? Make this an opportunity for you to get them to like you, and even if you fail, you know you've tried and that they're the stuck up ones, not you."And so a lightbulb suddenly turned itself 'on' in my head and my mouth opened up to speak. It was rather awkard at first, like intruding in other people's conversation. For the first times, sometimes my questions were ignored, but when they were answered, it felt good. Really good. Kinda addictive actually. hehe.
So later at 12plus-ish, Ica, Fiza, Hajar, Abdillah and I headed on to the beach to leave the increasing amount of
makciks and
pakciks in the overcrowded bungalow. After grabbing some snacks and drinks from Cheers, we headed on to the waterbreaker thingy and sat there for a good 3 hours. We shared our life stories, sang
jiwang songs, took a million photographs and watched porn on someone's handphone. haha. For the first time ever, i felt like i was part of the family. (",) We returned to the bungalow at around 4am, and slept soundly till 7 am, where we were woken up to this:
Makciks doing aerobics!! hahahahahahahahaha. (ok let me catch my breath) hahahahahaha. cutee lahh!! Specially my mak. hahahha. It was soo freaking cute i tell you. The way she bounced and jiggled and.. sigh so cute.
So the cousins and I got up and prepared to have a dip in the ocean blue, but sadly, it was super low tide, and the mud was so soggy that the moment we stepped on it, we'd be up to our knees in mud. *yuck* And so we went to the resident swimming pool and jumped in, until we were called back to join in the games conducted at the backyard of our bungalow.
The games were hilarious. Me, personally, got second in Musical Chairs (there were over 20 kids vying for the seat orkay!) and the captain's ball (plus wrestling) team i was in managed to win. Weee!! One of the games was the most hilarious
In this game, the husband was to be blindfolded and will feed bananas to their wives who were tied to a chair. Sounds very SDM. wahahha. So anyway, the funniest part was when one of the makcik who was explaining the game said
"Yah so the husband will be blindfolded and the wives will have to suck -"And to which everyone started laughing their ass out while the kids who don't understand the joke kept asking why the adults were laughing. The religious cousin-in-law kept saying "
Astarfirullahalazim" over the mike. hahha. funnylah!
After Asar prayers, the cousins and I sneaked out to the pool, where we played lots of games and soaked in the Jacuzzis and hid underwater when the adults called us out to pray Maghrib and Isyak. So at last we ponteng-ed the prayers, and played wrestling etc in the waters until my cousin spotted a pontianak. Thus, we quickly headed to the bungalow to get our share of the BBQ and after which all of us headed home...
Oh and if you're wondering what my daddy did most of the time, he did this
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 1:10 PM
Storming.
In a terrible mood. Terrible, terrible, terrible mood. So terrible that i'd even snapped at mom and my brother even though they did nothing wrong. buh.
Had lost all my mood to blog about the whole week. Whatever. Life's pace picking up real fast i don't have time to blog anymore and i doubt i will have time in the future too.
posted by Nur Fadhilah at 8:35 AM
